I came inside , he layeds me on couch and started massaging my legs.
Oh God ! It's so relaxing š. Was he doing massager job in London ?
I opened my eyes and asked him,"Does Kuya know I am here ?"
"Well he knows some part..",he said avoiding eyes contact.
"I will kill you .Just tell me what does he know and what don't know?",I asked him threatening.
"Well , he knows you are with me , but he don't know you won't be home tonight .",he replied.
"That's it. Wait...WHAT ",I screamed as soon as I understood what he said.
"You asshole , you really kidnapped me. Wait I will tell kuya to beat you",I said to him
Then, I heard my stomach making noise.He laughing after hearing that.
"Alright , you can complain to Boss. Now, do you want to eat something ",he asked me.
"Ofcourse, I'm not animal like you.I have to eat.And I'm hungry ",I said sarcastically.
"I'm not an animal.Wait, just give in ten ." He said .
"I don't have 10 peso to give you", I said to him.
He chuckled."I mean give 10 minutes and if you want , you can give me 10 kisses instead ",he said smirking.
"Go kiss the wall",I shot back.
He only chuckled more and said "Tss" and went to kitchen.I was being bored so I turned on the television .
Soon he arrived with food in his hand. And plated it in front of me.
I swear if it's not good I'm gonna punch him.
"Enjoy the salmon steak, Wifey ", he said grinning.
"Gago, your face is your wifey",I said annoyed . And take a small bite of his dish, I mean the dish he cook.
Honestly , it was not that bad . He also started eating and then he asked me "How were you while I was gone ?"
As if I'm his long relationship lover .
"Great . Marvelous. Happy, not to see your annoying face ",I said looking at steak .
"I missed you . I want to expl--", he tried to said but I cut him off
"Let me eat in peace. I don't wanna talk ",I said to him.
He listened and started eating quietly .As soon as eating was over he came to me.
Nope . I'm going to wash the dishes.
"Jay -"
"I won't wash the dishes",I said before he could.
"Relax, queen. I was asking for if need desert ? Maybe icecream?",he asked .
Ice cream who would say no for it .
I nodded and bringed the Ice cream .Oh it was choclate and cookies my favourite.
"You won't eat ",I asked him.He shook his head.
I started eating my icecream peacefully.
"I love you ",he said
"I love you too", i said . I realised what I said"I love you to Ice cream. I mean ",I said looking at him.
"Sure.Whatever " ,he said laughing .
Then I came upstairs and laid on the bed .I stared at the ceiling of the guest room, the taste of chocolate and cookies still lingering on my tongue, but the sweetness couldn't mask the bitterness starting to seep back into my chest.
My heart was doing that annoying thing againāsoftening. I hated it. I hated how easily he could slide back into the role of the "Old Keifer." The Keifer who knew exactly how to massage the tension out of my legs, who remembered my favorite ice cream, and who looked at me with those eyes that seemed so damn sincere.
But then, the echoes of his past words slashed through the cozy fog of the evening.
I used you .Tool. Flirt. Just a means to an end.
Each word felt like a physical bruise that hadn't quite healed. I closed my eyes, but that only made the memories sharper. He had used me. He'd stood there and stripped away my dignity with a few cold sentences, making me feel like I was nothing more than a pawn in whatever game he was playing.
How am I supposed to just delete that?
"I love you," he'd said downstairs.
I'd covered it up with a joke about the ice cream, but my pulse had spiked so hard it hurt. Part of meāthe weak, desperate partāwanted to run back downstairs, throw my arms around him, and pretend the last few months never happened. I missed us. I missed the safety I used to feel when he was near.
But trust? Trust is a mirror. Once it's shattered, you can glue it back together, but you'll always see the cracks. You'll always see the distortion in the reflection.
Since the island, he's been different. Carrying me, tolerating my insults, cooking for me even when I act like a brat... he's trying. I see it. But is he trying because he loves me, or is he just a better actor now?
Don't be a fool, Jay, I whispered to the empty room, clutching the pillow to my chest. My heart ached with a dull, heavy throb. I wanted to go back to how we were so badly it made me nauseous, but I couldn't let him in yet. I couldn't give him the power to break me a second time.
He might be acting like the man I loved, but I had to remember the man who left me bleeding. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of an explanationānot yet. Because if I listened to his excuses, I might believe them. And if I believed them, I was as good as lost.
I'm staying guarded. I have to. Even if my heart is screaming at me to let go.
I tried to sleep but I couldn't so I thought a glass of milk will help me.I peeked out saw that Gago sitting at terrace.amd was drinking.I know he has a good alcohol tolerance but what is going on with him. He looks different. More stressed.
I don't want to run into him and thenagain he will start the same topic. I came back and layed down on bed staring at window .After maybe an hour I heard the sound of door opening.
I shut my eyes close. " I know you are awake Jay ", he said sitting beside me.
Shit!shit!shit!
"Relax,I won't talk to you right now ", he said laying beside me and holding my waist.
"You Gago, let go... Let go" I said trying to remove his hand.
"Please Jay, let me. I have sleeping problem since I went London.Let me sleep like this", he explained.
"No , let go", I said trying to get up but he only tighten his grip.
I wanted to push him , punch but then he murmured," It hurts," he said, surprising me. "It hurts so bad seeing you in so much pain. And it doubled because the reason for your pain is me." I didn't react. "Every day, I keep wishing that your feelings would never change. I'm scared one day , I'll wake up and you will no longer love me".
He said tightening his grip . I felt his low sobbing beside me.I heart feeled like it was squeezing. I let him hugging me.Soon I also drifted to sleep
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