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Chapter 40 - You don't even know me

Dusk settled slowly over the royal garden, turning the palace grounds into a world suspended between light and shadow. Lanterns flickered to life one by one, their warm glow brushing over marble paths and casting soft halos against trimmed hedges and quiet fountains. Night-blooming flowers opened in silence, releasing a heavy, sweet scent that clung to the air and seemed to slow every breath.

Kaelenna found San Qi beneath the old ash tree at the far edge of the grounds.

It was a place few visited—ancient, solemn, its bark scarred by time and storms long forgotten. He stood there alone, rigid and unmoving, hands clasped behind his back as though at attention. His gaze was fixed ahead, unfocused, as if the garden before him were nothing more than a painted backdrop he endured out of obligation.

For a moment, she simply watched him.

There was something isolating about the way he held himself, as though the world pressed too close and he had learned to survive by keeping it at a distance. His presence weighed on the air, subtle but undeniable, like a warning whispered by instinct rather than sound.

She approached slowly, each step measured, uncertain whether her presence would be welcomed or resented.

"You must think I'm a monster, right?"

San Qi spoke without turning. His voice was low, tightly controlled, stripped of warmth—too even to be natural.

"After everything you've heard."

Kaelenna stopped a few paces behind him. The words hung between them, fragile and sharp. She studied the tension in his shoulders, the way his stillness felt coiled rather than calm. Then she shook her head.

"No," she said quietly.

San Qi turned.

The movement was quick, instinctive, and for a fleeting second surprise broke through his composure. His eyes searched her face, as if expecting hesitation, fear—anything that would confirm what he already believed.

"I don't see a monster," Kaelenna continued, her voice steady despite the way her heart thudded in her chest. "I see the man I'm supposed to walk beside."

His brow furrowed, disbelief flickering across his features before he smoothed it away.

"You don't even know me."

She smiled faintly, something soft and almost sad touching her expression. "That's the strange part. I don't know why… but it feels like I've known you my whole life. As if we've met before, somewhere far older than this place."

She took a step closer. The lantern light caught in her eyes.

"Whatever you are," she said gently, "whatever you carry, I don't fear it."

For a single heartbeat, his resolve cracked.

Something vulnerable surfaced in his gaze—raw, unguarded—before it vanished. He straightened, the warmth draining from his expression as if it had never been there.

"You shouldn't say things like that," he said coldly. "Closeness has consequences."

He turned away, already moving back toward the palace doors. He knew too well what a bond meant. Marriage was not ceremony or title—it was permanence. Souls intertwined. Thoughts bleeding into thoughts. Pain shared. No walls. No escape.

And he had learned the cost of that kind of closeness far too young.

Kaelenna's chest tightened as she watched him retreat.

"So that's it?" she said, sharpness cutting through her voice before she could stop it. "You don't want me?"

San Qi paused but did not turn.

Anger flared—bright and wounded. Her pride reared its head, fragile and furious.

"Do you have any idea who I am?" she lashed out. "I'm a woman desired by every man in this court—by every kingdom. You think I'd beg for your attention?"

That was when he snapped.

In a blur of motion, San Qi was suddenly in front of her. His hand closed around her wrist, firm and unyielding, pulling her flush against him. The air shifted violently—his wolves surged to the surface, raw and demanding, their presence roaring through him like a storm unleashed.

His lips crashed against hers.

The kiss was fierce, unrestrained, born of hunger he had denied for too long. It was not gentle. It was need—burning, desperate, undeniable. For days, every glance, every breath near her had driven his wolves into frenzy, clawing for dominance, for possession, for her.

Kaelenna gasped against his mouth, startled by the intensity, by the heat radiating from him like fire beneath skin. Her fingers curled into his cloak without conscious thought, and for a fleeting moment—only a moment—she kissed him back.

Then clarity struck.

She pushed him away.

San Qi froze.

The sudden distance felt like a blade. He looked at her, eyes dark and conflicted, disappointment flashing openly before he buried it beneath iron control. Something wounded flickered there—quick, painful, real.

Without a word, he stepped back and turned away.

"I'm returning to my kingdom," he said over his shoulder, his voice once again calm, distant, locked behind walls. "The wedding will be held here. We also need to discuss which kingdom relocates where."

He didn't look back.

Kaelenna remained beneath the ash tree, heart pounding, breath uneven, watching his figure disappear into the deepening shadows of the palace.

She did not know that the bond he feared—the one he ran from—had already begun to stir between them, quiet and irreversible, awakening like something ancient that had been waiting far longer than either of them understood.

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