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Nine days after arriving in the Death Realm, they went back.
El opened the portal the same way she opened everything — without ceremony, without the production of it, simply the available action taken at the available moment. The black and white of it found the Death Realm air and the portal was there.
**El :** "We have the evening."
She communicated.
He was already at the portal.
She almost communicated something about the speed of the being-at-the-portal.
She decided against it.
She went through after him.
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The cold red planet.
The city.
The evening.
The sky at its sunset quality — the pink of it finding the available atmosphere and producing the specific pink of this planet at this hour, the pink that was softer than the red of the morning but carried its origin in the softness, the pink of something that had been warm all day and was finding the quieter version of the warmth.
He stood in the city for a moment.
He breathed the air.
He had not realized he had been missing the air until the air arrived and he found himself standing in it with the specific quality of someone who has been away from something familiar and has found it again and is in the arriving of it.
The snow.
Still falling.
Still accumulating.
Still patient.
The demonic vehicles on the streets.
The citizens moving through the available city rhythms with the specific quality of a city in its evening mode.
He stood in it.
He breathed.
He had been in the Death Realm for nine days.
He had not noticed the specific qualities of the cold red planet being absent until they were present again.
The cold.
The pink sky.
The specific smell of the city's air — not a pleasant smell exactly, the specific smell of a city that was alive, that had the smell of everything that went into being alive in close proximity to many other things that were also alive.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He walked.
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The ice grass field.
He went there first.
Not to Garo's house or Felo's building. The field. Because the field was the thing he had been thinking about in the archive in the evenings when the reading had found its limit and the interior had found its own available material.
The field was empty.
The ice grass in its evening quality — the blue-green of it, the tips finding the pink sky and the sky finding the tips.
No one there.
He had not expected anyone.
He had not told anyone he was coming.
He stood at the field's edge.
He looked at the ice grass.
At the specific place where they sat in the evenings — the longer grass, the specific corner where the aurora was most visible.
He walked to it.
He sat.
He looked at the sky.
The aurora was beginning at the far edge.
Green.
Finding the pink.
He sat.
He was very still.
He was simply in the field.
For a while, simply in the field.
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The footsteps.
He knew the sound before he turned.
Rui.
She was at the field's entrance.
She had come from the direction of her family's house — the direction of the residential district, the specific direction that meant she had been home and had come toward the field for her own reasons, not knowing he was here.
She saw him.
She stopped.
She looked at him.
At the pale skin.
At the no horns.
At the sweater.
At the position — sitting in the specific place where they sat in the evenings, the same cross-legged configuration of the person she had been beside in the evenings more times than she had counted.
She looked at him.
He looked at her.
At the dark red eyes.
At the face.
At the expression — the specific expression of someone who had been looking at something that was not there and had found the thing standing in the available field.
She walked across the ice grass.
She came to the specific place.
She sat beside him.
The specific beside.
Close.
The beside that had always been close.
She looked at the aurora.
He looked at the aurora.
They did not say anything for a long time.
The aurora found its full expression — the green filling the dark blue sky, the specific full-expression quality of the aurora at its most itself.
Then:
**Rui :** "How long have you been back."
She said it.
She said it without looking at him.
She said it with the quality of someone who had many questions and had selected the most practical one first because the practical one was the gentlest way into the available conversation.
**Sindra :** "An hour."
He said it.
**Rui :** "And you came here first."
She said it.
She said it without the question mark.
She said it with the quality of someone noting something.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
She looked at the aurora.
He looked at the aurora.
**Rui :** "How is it."
She said it.
**Rui :** "The Death Realm."
She said it.
He was quiet for a moment.
He looked at the aurora.
**Sindra :** "Large."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "And old."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Very old."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "There is an archive."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "With records of everything since the beginning."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "I have been reading it."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "I am not going to finish it."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "It is very large."
He said it.
She almost smiled.
**Rui :** "But you are going to try."
She said it.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
She smiled.
The full version.
The warm full version that was hers.
She looked at the aurora.
**Rui :** "And the training."
She said it.
He was quiet for a moment.
**Sindra :** "She is teaching me things."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "The Death Reaper."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "El."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "She teaches differently from how you taught me."
He said it.
**Rui :** "How."
She said it.
She turned and looked at him.
At the dark eyes.
At the flat expression.
He looked at the aurora.
**Sindra :** "You taught me the output."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "The three layers."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "How to combine them correctly."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "El is teaching me what the three layers are made of."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Below the three layers."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "What they come from."
He said it.
He looked at her.
**Sindra :** "You gave me the thing that made it possible to find what she is teaching."
He said it.
He said it with the flat quality.
He said it with the specific flat quality that was carrying something genuine in the flat and communicating it through the cover.
Rui looked at him.
At the dark eyes.
At the flat expression.
At the specific quality of it in this moment.
She breathed.
She looked at the aurora.
**Rui :** "You were going to melt those rocks eventually."
She said it.
**Rui :** "Without me."
She said it.
He looked at the aurora.
**Sindra :** "Maybe."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "But I think it would have taken longer."
He said it.
She looked at the aurora.
He looked at the aurora.
The aurora in its full expression.
The green.
The dark blue.
The pink fading at the edges.
**Rui :** "She is kind."
She said it.
**Rui :** "El."
She said it.
It was not a question.
She had drawn this conclusion from something — from the quality of him sitting in the field, from the specific quality of the return, from the nine days in the Death Realm communicating something through the person who had come back from them.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
He said it simply.
He said it with the quality of someone for whom the simplicity of the yes was sufficient because the yes was large enough that adding to it was unnecessary.
**Rui :** "Good."
She said it.
She looked at the aurora.
He looked at the aurora.
They were quiet.
The ice grass.
The pink fading.
The green building.
The cold of the planet's evening finding them and the ice grass around them and the specific quality of a field that had been the place where the important things happened and which was, in this specific evening, the place where the important thing of being in the field was happening.
**Rui :** "Come back when you can."
She said it.
She said it the same way she had said it when he left.
Not as a request.
As the available direction.
He looked at her.
At the dark red eyes.
At the face.
At the expression.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "I will."
He said it.
She looked at the aurora.
He looked at the aurora.
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Garo found him at the field's entrance on the way back.
This was predictable in the specific way that Garo was predictable — not because he was simple but because his love expressed itself through showing up and he showed up with the consistent commitment of something that had decided showing up was the contribution and was implementing the decision without reservation.
He was running.
He had heard from — someone. Garo always heard from someone. The specific network of information that surrounded Garo was a function of his loudness — when you were loud everything around you knew you and everything around you told you things.
He ran.
He arrived.
He was breathing hard.
He had a bag.
**Garo :** "SINDRA."
At the full available Garo volume.
At the full committed quality of someone who had been running and had found the thing they were running toward and was communicating the finding at the appropriate volume.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He was looking at Sindra.
At the pale skin.
At the no horns.
At the sweater.
At the specific quality of someone who had been in the Death Realm for nine days and who had come back from it and who was standing at the edge of the ice grass field in the evening.
**Garo :** "You came back."
He said it.
He said it at a volume that was not the full available Garo volume.
He said it with the quality underneath the volume — the genuine quality, the quality that the volume usually covered.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
Garo breathed.
He breathed.
He looked at Sindra.
He was very still.
For Garo, this was the equivalent of moving mountains.
The stillness was the full expression of something that could not be communicated at the available Garo volume and which had therefore produced the silence that the volume had been covering all along.
He breathed.
He held out the bag.
**Garo :** "I brought food."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Obviously."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Rice crackers."
He said it.
**Garo :** "And some other things."
He said it.
**Garo :** "A lot of other things."
He said it.
**Garo :** "The bag is quite full."
He said it.
**Garo :** "You look like you have not eaten enough."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Has she been feeding you."
He said it.
**Garo :** "The Death Reaper."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Has she been giving you proper food."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Good food or just food."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Good food."
He said it.
**Garo :** "How good."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Good enough that I noticed."
He said it.
Garo looked at him.
He processed this.
**Garo :** "Okay."
He said it.
**Garo :** "That is acceptable."
He said it.
**Garo :** "But take the rice crackers anyway."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Because you should always have rice crackers."
He said it.
**Garo :** "That is just a fact about the world."
He said it.
Sindra took the bag.
He looked at it.
He looked at Garo.
**Sindra :** "Thank you."
He said it.
Garo breathed.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He was very still again.
The specific stillness of the genuine quality underneath the volume.
**Garo :** "Come back more often."
He said it.
He said it at the quiet version.
**Garo :** "I know you cannot always."
He said it.
**Garo :** "But when you can."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Come back more often."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
Garo breathed.
He found the volume again.
The specific recovering of the volume that communicated that the genuine moment had been had and was now being filed in the specific location where Garo kept the things that mattered too much to be kept in the loud register.
**Garo :** "Also Felo says something."
He said it.
**Garo :** "He said to tell you."
He said it.
**Garo :** "That you are still the most interesting person he has observed."
He said it.
**Garo :** "And that the observation continues."
He said it.
**Garo :** "And that this is a sustained observation rather than a concluded one."
He said it.
**Garo :** "Whatever that means."
He said it.
**Garo :** "I am just reporting it."
He said it.
Sindra looked at the bag.
He looked at the city.
He looked at the field.
At the aurora.
At the pink sky fading.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He almost smiled.
The full version arrived.
Small.
Warm.
The specific version that existed when something was genuinely good.
He looked at Garo.
**Sindra :** "Tell him."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "That the observation is noted."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "And that I am aware of it."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "And that it is."
He said it.
He was quiet for a moment.
He looked at the aurora.
**Sindra :** "Mutual."
He said it.
He said it with the flat quality.
He said it with the quality of someone saying the truest available sentence in the flattest available delivery because the flatness was the available delivery and the sentence was true regardless.
Garo looked at him.
For a moment.
Then:
**Garo :** "HE IS GOING TO BE SO SMUG ABOUT THAT."
He said it.
At the full available volume.
At the specific full committed quality of someone whose genuine feeling had found the available channel and was using it.
Sindra looked at the aurora.
He breathed.
He breathed.
He smiled.
The full version.
Not the small one.
The full warm genuine version.
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The portal.
El was waiting at the city's edge.
She had been there — patient, the patience of something for which waiting was simply the available condition of the moment and which had no strong opinion about the condition.
He came to her.
He had the bag.
He was carrying it the way he carried things — the full committed carrying of someone who had decided the thing was worth carrying.
She looked at him.
At the bag.
At the quality of the return.
At the specific quality of someone who had come back from the field and from Garo and from the aurora over the ice grass.
She communicated.
**El :** "Good."
She said it.
Simply.
He looked at her.
**Sindra :** "She told you to pick me."
He said it.
He said it flatly.
**Sindra :** "Because I stayed what I was."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "In the corner of the street."
He said it.
He looked at her.
**Sindra :** "You were watching."
He said it.
**Sindra :** "From before."
He said it.
She communicated.
**El :** "Yes."
She said it.
**Sindra :** "How long."
He said it.
She communicated.
**El :** "Weeks."
She said it.
He looked at her.
**Sindra :** "You watched for weeks."
He said it.
**El :** "I needed to be certain."
She communicated.
He looked at her.
**Sindra :** "Of what."
He said it.
She communicated.
**El :** "That what I was seeing was real."
She communicated.
**El :** "And not performed."
She communicated.
**El :** "That the quality I found in the field."
She communicated.
**El :** "Was the same quality in the city."
She communicated.
**El :** "And in the school."
She communicated.
**El :** "And in the corner of the street."
She communicated.
**El :** "It is very easy to be something in the field in the evenings."
She communicated.
**El :** "With your friends around you."
She communicated.
**El :** "And the aurora overhead."
She communicated.
**El :** "It is harder to be the same thing."
She communicated.
**El :** "In the corner of a street."
She communicated.
**El :** "In the cold."
She communicated.
**El :** "With nothing."
She communicated.
He looked at her.
**El :** "You were the same thing."
She communicated.
**El :** "In both places."
She communicated.
**El :** "That is what I was looking for."
She communicated.
He looked at her.
He looked at the portal.
At the black and white of it.
He looked at the city.
At the lights.
At the aurora above the lights.
He looked at El.
**Sindra :** "You should have come sooner."
He said it.
He said it flatly.
He said it with the quality of someone making an honest observation.
El communicated.
**El :** "Yes."
She said it.
She said it directly.
**El :** "I should have."
She said it.
He looked at her.
At the golden eyes.
At the acknowledgment in them — the direct honest acknowledgment of someone who had been told a true thing and was receiving it as the true thing it was.
He breathed.
He looked at the portal.
He went through.
She went through after him.
The portal closed.
The city remained.
The aurora over it.
The ice grass at its edge.
The pink fading to dark blue.
The green building.
The specific patient quality of a place that had been what it was for a very long time and which would continue being what it was after this specific evening was no longer the available evening.
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The Death Realm.
The main room.
The stone table.
He put the bag down.
He sat.
He opened the bag.
He found the rice crackers.
He put them on the table.
He sat with them.
El came and sat across from him.
She looked at the rice crackers.
He looked at the rice crackers.
He picked one up.
He held it out to her.
She looked at it.
At him.
He was holding it out.
She communicated.
**El :** "You are giving me a rice cracker."
She said it.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
**El :** "From the bag your friend Garo gave you."
She said it.
**Sindra :** "Yes."
He said it.
She looked at the rice cracker.
She reached out.
She took it.
She looked at it.
The specific looking of someone who was receiving something that communicated more than the thing itself.
She communicated.
**El :** "Thank you."
She said it.
She said it with the quality of someone for whom the thank you was not a social response but the honest communication of something received.
He picked up one himself.
He ate it.
She held hers.
She held it with the care of someone who was holding something that was worth holding with care.
The Death Realm around them.
The crimson.
The chains glowing.
The ancient stone.
The two of them at the stone table.
The rice crackers.
The full quiet of the Death Realm at the end of an evening.
Outside — impossibly far — a cold red planet with a pink sky and an aurora and a girl sitting in ice grass watching the green find the dark blue and three friends who would show up again when showing up was the available thing.
Inside — here — the beginning of something.
Not the dramatic beginning of something announced.
The quiet beginning of something real.
El held the rice cracker.
She sat.
The warmth in the golden eyes.
Warm enough to fill a room much larger than this one.
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*End of Chapter 6 — Rice Crackers and the Ice Grass Field*
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