I loved you in ways I was never brave enough to admit.
In late-night conversations, unfinished confessions, and quiet moments that meant more to me than they ever did to you.

You became my safest place without ever being mine.
And i became a man who learned, too late, that silence can cost you everything.

These are the words I never said, the truth i buried, and the love i was too afraid to choose.

the kind who lend books and never ask them back.


without feeling like i'm dying in every damn frame.


maybe we'd still hang out with the same friends,


if your husband gets your Bon Iver references the way i did.


maybe Coldplay wouldn't sound like a trigger,


i smell cherry & smoke on someone else—


Chapter 57 - What if I never loved you