It was simple to understand.
Lloyd felt guilty. But he hadn't realized it.
The reason was his own stupidity. He saw himself as someone cold and manipulative, but even if that was so, it didn't change that he was also human.
On his conscience weighed the guilt of having pushed Alice to commit an atrocity like matricide.
Yes, he was aware Alice's mother was a monster, that Alice had reasons to do what she did.
That's precisely why he wasn't angry with Alice.
He was angry with himself for having pushed someone as innocent and broken as Alice to commit that act.
The anger was with himself.
Each time he scolded Alice, he was really yelling at himself.
But that was dangerous, since it caused a vicious circle.
Because each time he yelled at Alice the worse he would feel about himself.
And each time that happened, Alice would try to err again to gain that affection and love she needed.
Lloyd understood it now, though also, he felt extremely stupid for not having noticed before.
