Date:20xx/11/05
Ahhh,
I only remain of other 5 main characters,
Well,
I was only the normal one among them,
Some were addicts and some were killers,
But none of them changed,
They sticked with their small good characters formed due to huge number of bad characters,
The question has always come to my mind,
With my ability,
Can I do what I have been dreaming for months?
I don't know anything,
But what I do know is,
I am in the position of the foot less bird,
Either toward sucess or destruction,
All I know is I have 3 months now,
I don't care about the result,
All I care about is whether I can do something great,
Whether can I focus on that impossible goal,
Without getting into whrilpool of despair,
Can I achieve that goal?
Just thinking about it,
Makes me sick,
It makes me think,
How can a lowly person like me,
Even dream of that?
And what's more,
It is absoulutely necessary for me to achieve this goal,
Even though I talk of self improvement and change,
I have never done anything with my full potential,
I do things half-heartly,
I do change but in double of time,
I do get good marks but I know I can get more,
Let's see how better the person I am in next 3 months,
If I don't do things with my potential,
Then my soul will depise me for eternity,
No matter how much reincarnation,
This karma never will end,
All I wanna know is,
Can I BASANTA pursue anything with my entire being???
I wanna know it,
Even if I fail after that,
That failure of me will be 100x times then current me,
So it is win-win situation,
Ahhh,
This risk,
Only I know of,
Sometimes,
It seems ridiculous and sometimes madness,
Ahhh lets meet after 3 months,
Whether my soul will carry the karma of my hatred or my satisfaction.
I don't know whether I will attain that goal, That will let me leap the heaven in one step,
But all I wanna know is,
Can I pursue with all my being,
So all I care about is what karma my soul will carry.
HATRED OR SATISFACTION and there will be my after thoughts,
I welcome all of you to do something ridiculous and see what karma your soul will carry,
EDIT:SATISFACTION.
Last Edited:20xx/02/15
Diary Entry by:Basanta
DANCE OF THE SEASONS ends here,
Curtains Fall.
Author Notes:Writing this novel was so hard and very tiring, I am a engineer student it is diffcult to publish chapters daily and most difficult thing is I had only 2-3 hours daily, I had to think of plot but when I wanted to write pov like Shishir, I just couldnt force myself to adopt his mindset, feel his pains and create his thought process and if i couldnt do that the story lacked that real feeling then immediately, I need to write another pov of like say Basanta who is opposite extreme of Shishir,
I hated writing Sharad pov, killing him felt nice,
Killing Shishir was very hard, that Sharad is a dimwit, why he enjoy sex at home?
Muna death was very very diffcult to write, Her arc was what I enjoyed the most, Saga of the Ages is the novel I wrote long ago but deleted it after I got no views lets leave that,
Arc of Sagar was different and volatile,
That is a thnx for reading.