Jasmine's POV
I spring to my feet, looking for where to escape to. It's already midnight and I need to wake up very early tomorrow, I can't roam around the apartment.
The big living room suddenly feels suffocating. I just want to run away and hide. Why do I want to?
I glare at the duvet spread across the floor, its no longer inviting. Fuck.
"Jas…" he starts, almost holding my wrist, but I snatch it away before he can.
"What?" I growl.
I don't know why I'm like this. Why am I angry on his girlfriend's…no fiancée's behalf that he has been bringing in several girls despite being engaged?
Am I the only one that knows? Or does everyone know, yet they throw themselves at him? This is totally fucked up.
Right when I thought he was a nice guy, but what was I expecting from a total asshole who only thinks with his dick? He thinks that just because he has a striking face and is popular, he can have anyone while disregarding his obligations as someone who is engaged.
"You saw the text too" he states calmly, rising to his feet, his height towering over mine. I don't bother looking up to his annoying face.
"It's not what you think. I'm not that type of person… I…" he stutters, rubbing the back of his neck.
"What do I care?" I shoot. My tone harshly biting through the thick air surrounding us.
"I don't know…fuck… I just don't want you to misunderstand me"
"Misunderstand you? How is it any of your concern if I choose to do that? Do you think you even have a good reputation not to talk of being misunderstood?" I fume, every trace of sleep gone from my eyes.
"Why do you keep doing this? All I've done is try to make this roommate thing work out between us. You…"
I cut him off immediately, "Work out? Don't lie to yourself, Xavier. How do you explain throwing a party in the middle of the night knowing fully well that I spoke against it earlier? And when I bring it up, I don't get any apology from you"
I deliberately skip the ending part of when I approached him in the kitchen.
"Or is it the part where one of your guests walked into the bathroom? What if it was a guy? Common, you bring both girls and guys here. Do you even care even one little bit that you have a roommate, and worse, I'm a girl?" I can feel my whole body vibrating at this point, I didn't know how much I was holding in and that it'll only take a text to get me to burst out.
"And the cherry on the cake, despite being engaged, I get to suffer for your infidelity. I can't sleep because you are either loudly banging someone or there's someone else doing that in your room."
"See…Jas" he starts calmly, but I don't want to hear his voice.
"Don't fucking call me Jas. It's Jasmine to you, and in fact, I don't want you to ever call my name."
"Can you for once listen to me?" He snaps, turning me to face him.
"You have every right to be angry. I understand that I haven't been the best roommate so far, and I promise to do better…"
"Another one of your promises you don't ever keep" I bite out.
Whatever I said must have ticked him off; his face morphs into a grim expression.
"Don't you ever accuse me of not keeping to my promises. I am a man of my words, do not doubt my integrity"
"Integrity?" I hiss, "What does someone like you know about integrity? Besides trying so hard to impress everyone both with your skills and body, what else can you do? Don't speak of integrity when you can't even be faithful to your partner or respect my boundaries"
I didn't plan for today to turn out this way. Fuck, if I knew he was going to be here, I would have gone to Bella's place.
Worse still, not only is he here, but I'm locked out with him. I've never felt so trapped.
"It's fine if you don't want to understand me, but why do you keep talking about me being unfaithful like it's your fucking business? What do you know about me?"
"Nothing. Absolutely nothing, and I don't want to know anything about you. This much I know is already hurting my head. And yes, it's not my business. It shouldn't be until you made it mine. If you were fucking those girls somewhere else then I wouldn't even give a fuck"
"You keep forgetting that I own…"
"Oh please. Tell my something new. I paid for this and we have to learn to coexist without you bothering my life. Or do you want to throw me out now?"
All my nerves flare. I have never been this angry in a long while. Something in me knows that it's not just the fact that he interferes with my life that bothers me, but his unfaithfulness bites me way deeper than I can admit. I don't know why it hurts me more?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I'm not his Fiancée, and I'm sure she wouldn't even have acted out as much as I did.
"I'll never throw you out, Jas" His voice softens and somehow I feel all the steam inside me melting away. "I'm sorry things escalated this way. I am really sorry."
He surprises me with his apology before adding,
"And I'm sorry for how I've acted in the past. I mean it this time. I'm not a bad person, and more than anything, I don't want you to see me as one. I ruined your night and probably the few days you've been here and I deserve your anger. I apologize for that. Maybe for a change, I'll look into the rules you set if it makes things better between us."
'Us?' My insides warm to the word but I don't want him messing with my head. I almost bite back when the door of the apartment flies open.
Fuck.
The door wasn't locked all this time.