What, where am I now?
Am I still fighting against Mordon?
but this world looks beautiful, there are lots of trees here.
he got up slowly and walked away while enduring the pain in his legs.
walked and walked and kept walking.
in his brain he thought that this was the heaven that God had prepared for him.
"This is the heaven that God prepared for my death," he said while coughing.
then a foreigner who was around 57 years old tapped him on the shoulder from behind and said:
"Young man, you still have a long life to go to heaven, open your eyes son, open your eyes," he said.
then he closed his eyes and opened them again, after he opened his eyes he saw a sword swing that wanted to slash his neck.
he dodged then rolled, after that he lifted his neck when he fell and saw in front of him a corpse holding a sword, after that he took it and stabbed the person who wanted to cut his neck roughly.
then a faint whisper came to his ear which said:
"Why are you still alive, and why does God still allow you to live, God has the wrong plan by letting you live and walk in this world," said the foreign whisper.
Behind him, someone wanted to slash his back, but he dodged quickly but the slash still hit his back, revealing a white spine stained with blood.
Ahhh!!!
"Fuck, it hurts, it hurts so fucking bad, I have to slit the fucking bastard," he said while screaming in pain.
he stabbed her in the neck with a sword he found from a corpse lying below, he stabbed her and pushed her deeper and pulled her up so that her head split painfully and horribly.
one hour, two hours, three hours, and the war is still going on and has not stopped.
something whispered to him again.
"Why, why were you not beheaded with the sword, and why did not death come to you, and why did God allow you to live and forbid death to come to you?" he said once again.
he answered angrily:
"Shut up!!! Damn voice, if you hate me why don't you just kill me, FUCK!!!!" He answered while shouting.
he didn't know where the sound came from or was created, it just kept coming, maybe from monsters and such or maybe from the other side.
Enemies were everywhere, confusion and madness enveloped him. All he saw were corpses, blood, horror and wildness. He saw the war as hell.
God, where are you, do you care about your servant?
why didn't he come down from the sky and intervene or something, why did he just keep quiet, why did he let his servant see and experience such a terrible apparition.
He was attacked by four enemies holding swords and spears, he was stabbed in the chest, thigh and throat but was still able to get up and fight them even though he was weak and in pain.
He grabbed the head of one of them and when the other enemy wanted to stab him with a spear he swung the man's head towards the spear so hard that blood came out of his eyes like rain.
and when his spear had penetrated the head, he seized the spear and swung it at the other enemies so violently and wildly that they fell and piled one on top of the other.
"Damn!!!! So much, I'm exhausted, death where are you? I want you to end this suffering," he said with difficulty because his throat had a hole in it and he closed the hole so that blood wouldn't come out, his vocal cords were hanging in the hole in his neck.
and he is still fighting and waiting for death to take him if that is the fate that God has ordained for him.