Walking outside in the chilling night's cold, Mikhail leaned against the yards wall and looked up at the full moon in the overcasted sky and started to speak.
" Father God, it's been a while ya know.... Honestly just finished smoking a weed scliff to clear my mind and I just said I'll have a little conversation with you because it's been awhile ya know..."
Exhaling heavily Mikhail turned around and leaned back against the cold concrete wall and gazed up at the moon lit night sky..
" Well God, first and most of all I'm asking you to guide and protect the people I love, My mother, my father, my grandmother's, and the girl I love... Give them wisdom, comprehension, awakening, critical and logical thinking. Help them, and guide them to becoming the best version of them selves."
" As for my the others I care about, close companions, friends, colleagues and other individuals... Please guide them, and keep them. Give them guidance, protection, and enlightenment and guide them as well towards there right path..."
Mikhailed sighed heavily for a moment and looked up at the night sky for a moment before he continued..
" Father God... As for me... Well that's a complicated one ya know... I'm not the best person nor am I the strongest... Not yet... However I'm still trying ya know... "
" Things these days haven't been so great, Work is depressing and breaking me slowly each day at a time, home is no different... It seem any moment now I'll be homeless... And that's rather overwhelming if I should say the truth..."
" Honestly father, I think I see the lessons your trying to teach me, which is why I am having these hardships... Like per the house, your trying to teach me endurance and patience... To wait on the opportune time for the right house and have faith... And honestly I'm doing my best.. cause it seem nothing is going my way in that field..."
" As per work situation... Honestly father... That lesson is a wicked one.... I see your trying to hone me and sharpen my blades... Mold me into a weapon that is patient, strong, resilient, wise, observing, and most of all unbreakable..."
" But to be truthful.... That one is taking a beating on me.... However I'm am still doing my best to absorb and master those skills.. so that I can be a true king... One that is truly worthy of the tilte.. and not one who only wears it...."
" God as for my girlfriend, honestly it's rather a complicated situation between me and Lorelei... And honestly in my thoughts I'm just wondering when the time will come where I will no longer be of use or need to her and I'll just end up fading away like a memory... Like.. I can't help but think like I'm just a temporary place holder until someone better come and take what belongs to them.. and that truly makes me feel insecure... Not going to lie there.... Regardless if I am just a temporary replacement or a place holder.... I still love her regardless. That's how I truly feel... I've grown to love Lorelei for who she is and I hope on her journeys of what ever battles she may need to face she will over come them... She is smart, observing and most of all resilient... And I believe in her... so please... Help her and guide her... Give her the protection and guidance she need to reach her goals and destination.."
" As for my parents.. honestly they aren't perfect, but they are the ones I wouldn't change... They both have there own battles and troubles... But all I ask of you Lord is to guide them.. give them health and strength and the will to keep on no matter what.. cause I love them both and they are irreplaceable..."
" Back to me again god... Heh... Honestly... I know I'm not a good person.. after all I consider myself a devil... A monster... One who isn't deserving of many things... Not anymore... And honestly deep down inside I feel otherwise... I just hope those many things can truly be mine... And I'll be worthy..."
" Regardless if I am a Demon or Devil... Even if I may already be booked to my fated doom and ending... Just know... I love and respect you father God... You need to take care of yourself as well too God .. that way one day... Hopefully I can be of use to you.. demon or not... That you can rest.. even if it's for a tiny bit..."
" With that being said God... I think imma wrap this conversation up I've been having with you... It's been awhile.... Having heard your voice.. "
" I definitely can hear the voices of my good demons... Kuri.... Akimi... Sibiki... Chaos.... They live within the inner realm and depths of my soul... Even though Sibiki and Chaos are something between a devil and something else... Regardless... I myself will still be waiting... Waiting for the day you and I can sit down and truly have a talk... Father God we have a lot to catch up on... So please take care of yourself..."
" With that being said... As broken my mind and body is, beaten down my heart may be and destroysd my soul is.... I am still here... And with that I have faith..."
" So until next time father God... In Your name, your son's names, and all the gods names... Amen..."
And with that, Mikhail looked up at the moonsmiling softly for a few minutes and then walked away back into the house. Having completed his conversation with the nothingness of the vast universe..Hoping the divinity he seeks has heard his call.