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Chapter 4 - The Worms of Desire

The oil lamp above the table seemed ashamed of itself.

Its light did not reach the walls—it stopped halfway, the way a coward stops, leaving the four corners of the room in perfect darkness that breathed quietly. Only the table, and what was on it, and what was around it : a small circle of luminous existence in the middle of a sea of comfortable black.

The playing cards on the table were mixed in the manner of a man who played often—softened from frequent handling, their edges gently worn from extended use, some bearing on their backs the old oil stain of a previous session.

Kaelan held his left cards with relaxed open fingers, his right card laid flat on the table beside his cup. The cigarette rested between his index and middle finger, its smoke rising in a thin straight line toward the ceiling where it dispersed into darkness. He took a long drag—not hurried, but deliberate, as one who savored rather than needed—then passed it across the table.

Orin took it with fingers occupied by the cards in his other hand. He inhaled once, deeply, released the smoke slowly through nearly closed lips, and returned the cigarette to the center of the table.

"So," Orin said, drawing a card from his hand, looking at it, then placing it face down before him. "What is the plan ?"

Kaelan lifted his right card. Looked at it with eyes that revealed nothing. Placed it face down as well.

"I am waiting for a shipment from the east," he said. "Thirty-three clients waiting for their goods, some of whom paid deposits in amounts that do not allow me to forget." He drew a new card from the deck. Looked at it. Added it to his hand without expression. "But pleasing them all at once is a draining task, my friend. I am considering taking a leave after."

"A leave," Orin repeated, in the tone of one who hears a word in a language he does not know.

"The continent of Theras," Kaelan said. "I hear their therapeutic resorts are without equal. Natural hot springs, air that carries no smell of selling." He lifted his eyes from the cards for a moment. "That is the plan."

"I meant about the girl," Orin said. He reached out and took the cigarette from the center of the table. Inhaled. Returned it.

Kaelan was silent for a moment.

"Hmm." He took the cigarette. Inhaled slowly, his eyes on the cards in his hand. Released the smoke. "I did some research. There are stories connected to something called Neriel."

"Neriel."

"A small entity. Demon, spirit—the sources do not agree on the classification." He placed a card. Took another. "Connected to the ruin of Verat—do you remember it ? Twelve years ago. Forty-seven people in a single night."

"I remember it," Orin said, in a quieter tone.

"And the fire at Duke Valintar's palace in the west. Eight years ago. The palace, the garden, the stables, and the entire north wing in six hours."

Orin lifted his eyes from his cards.

"Connected how ? Did this Neriel do those things ?"

"No one knows," Kaelan said. He drew a card. Looked at it with momentary focus, then added it. "Somehow, it was at the center of each. Present before and after. And the survivors of the events—those who remain—describe one common thing."

"Do the stories describe its form ?" Orin asked.

Kaelan lifted his head slowly from his cards. He looked at Orin. Raised an eyebrow. Said nothing.

Orin took a slow breath and placed his cards face down on the table. He thought. Thought more. His eyes moved to a point behind Kaelan's shoulder.

"A girl," he said. "A small human girl."

"Bingo," Kaelan said.

The word fell into the room like a stone into still water.

Silence.

Orin picked up the cigarette from the center of the table. Twirled it between his fingers without inhaling.

"So what will you do with her?"

"I do not know yet," Kaelan said, with genuine tone—not evasion, but an honest answer from a man who had no other.

He picked up a card. Looked at it. Then added what was in his hand to it with a single calm motion and spread all of them across the table.

A full house in spades. Four cards of the same rank and one that completed them.

"Damn," Orin said.

The hallway between the playroom and the sleeping suite stretched out in the darkness like an endless sin. The distance was not the issue, but that sepulchral silence that swallowed everything ; the last breath of life in the house died at the threshold of the playroom, leaving nothing but a void that crawled over the walls, ceiling, and floor with a stark coldness.

Kieran opened his bedroom door.

Layla was there, waiting.

She sat on the edge of the bed, her back straight with the poise of a woman who would not allow waiting to break her dignity. Her dark, wavy hair cascaded like a nightfall shower over her bare shoulders, and the thin silk nightgown, the color of aged wine, barely veiled the curve of her thighs. It traced the lines of a twenty-eight-year-old body ; a body that had ripened slowly and knew exactly how to command a presence without a single word.

She raised her eyes to him as he entered, their glint in the shadows speaking volumes.

— « You're late, » she said in a melodious tone, a dry observation carrying no reproach, only a veiled invitation.

— « I'm sorry, » Kieran replied, locking the door behind him, the sound of the deadbolt echoing in the room like a declaration of isolation from the world. He shed his coat and tossed it aside carelessly. « It's been a long night… and a draining one. »

— « It's fine, » she smiled that smile that ends conversation to begin what is more important.

He approached her slowly, like someone approaching a shrine or prey. He placed his palm on her cheek, his fingers weaving into the roots of her hair behind her ear, and kissed her—a slow, deliberate start, the kiss of a man who realized that pleasure lay in the prelude, not the arrival. Her hands rose to his chest, her fingers beginning to toy with the buttons of his shirt, undoing them one by one with a calm skill as if rediscovering familiar terrain.

With a single finger, he hooked the strap of her gown off her right shoulder with provocative slowness. As the cool air of the room touched her warm skin, her body reacted with a slight shiver, and her nipples hardened distinctly beneath the thin silk that began to slide under gravity's pull. He did not stop ; he pulled the fabric lower until her chest was completely freed, her breasts emerging in the dim light of the room like two warm alabaster carved pieces.

He took them both down onto the bed, sinking into the softness of the covers.

He buried his lips in her neck, in that hot spot below the ear where the skin is at its thinnest and the pulse beats wildly beneath his mouth. He felt the trembling of her limbs and the shift in the rhythm of her breath, which became ragged and shallow. She dug her fingers hard into his hair, pulling him closer, while he moved his head lower. Her hardened nipples were beneath his mouth now, teasing them with his tongue in slow, circular motions that made the sound of her stifled moans fill the desolate void between the dark walls of the room.

He went lower still, his hand exploring the softness of her thighs beneath the silk, moving upwards where the heat ignited, exploring the deepest hollow of her body which began to writhe, demanding more.

Her voice rose in a long gasp, then turned into a muffled scream buried in her pillow, then climbed higher as if she had reached a peak from which there was no return, then—

Everything stopped.

The sudden silence stopped him.

He lifted his head.

Her face was not her face.

The skin dissolved from the center outward like wet paper collapsing, and beneath—no bone, no flesh—worms. Thick, white, translucent, writhing over one another with slow, contented motion, emerging from the collapsed cavity of the face and spreading across the pillow like a liquid seeking its level. From the two empty eye sockets, two of them emerged longer than the rest and moved toward him.

No scream. No time for a scream.

He threw his body backward with all he had—muscles decided before the mind, a raw uncalculated leap. His back struck air, then the cold floor of the room with the sound of bone hitting stone.

Then :

"Sir ?"

The voice.

Her voice. Real and concerned.

"Sir ? Are you all right ?"

He opened his eyes.

The ceiling. The room's lamp extinguished. The natural darkness of a night chamber.

Lila at the edge of the bed looking down at him from above, her hair falling forward, her face—her full face, living skin, worried eyes.

He checked his body. The cold floor beneath him. His back ached from the impact.

"Are you all right ?" she said. "You suddenly looked very tired. You fell from—"

"I am fine." The words came out faster than he intended.

He sat up. Took a second. Looked at her again.

A full face. A concerned woman. Nothing else.

"Sorry," he said. "I need some air."

The southern terrace of the manor overlooked the sleeping estate.

The village below was faint lines of public lamp light between dark houses. And the paved stone road gleamed under the moonlight in a quiet silver, unlike anything Kaelan had seen in the past twenty-four hours.

The air here expanded the lungs in a way the air of no closed room could.

"You did not sleep."

The voice came from the shadow on his left.

Arthur Levan—the head steward, sixty-five years old, tall in the manner of one who had been tall all his life and so his body had built itself upward. His hair had been fully white for at least twenty years, his face carried the chronic calm of a man who had seen many things and decided not to be surprised by them afterward.

He stood beside a small coffee pot on a table at the terrace's edge. As though he had been there before him.

"Arthur," Kaelan said.

"Sir," he nodded. "Is everything all right ?"

"Tired from the journey," Kaelan said. The lie came easily when built on truth.

Arthur poured a cup and slid it toward him without a word. Hot coffee in the cold night—this was the kind of understanding that needed no question.

"The child," Kaelan said after a sip. "How is she ?"

"Stable," Arthur said. "She ate. A reasonable amount for her size. Then she slept in the corner—she refused the bed."

"The corner."

"Yes. She sat in the right corner of the room and closed her eyes. She has not moved since."

Kaelan looked down at the estate. The light of one distant lamp dying slowly.

They talked until dawn—not about anything specific. About the estate and the repair of the north gate, which needed new stone. About the coming shipment from the east and the arrangements for receiving it. About the weather, and how this winter would be longer than the farmers believed. Real things, grounded things, the kind of things a mind needed when it wanted something to hold onto in the night.

When the sky began to release its darkness gradually toward gray, Arthur said :

"Lila asked about you."

"I know," Kaelan said. "Apologize to her."

Arthur nodded without comment. This, too, was the kind of understanding that needed no question.

Morning found Kaelan Solt with the features of a man who had slept on a wooden chair for an hour.

His eyes were red with the painful redness of eyes that had not received what they needed. His face carried the full weight of the night the way heavy things are carried—without complaint and without concealment. His black hair was tied hastily in a manner that served not form but simply kept the hair from his eyes.

Orin was in the entrance putting on his coat when he saw him.

He stopped. Looked him up and down with a brief medical assessment.

"You look terrible."

"Thank you for the compliment," Kaelan said as he passed him.

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