The existence of someone in my life was not just a phase… it became a lesson. A lesson that slowly taught me how to survive, even in the toughest situations.
Yeh meri life ke ek bilkul normal din ki baat hai… par shayad woh sabse special din banne wala tha. Aur yaad kyun na rahe… kyunki wahi din meri life ka turning point tha.
Date thi 18 February 2025. Mere cousin ki shaadi thi.
Din bilkul normal tarah se start hua — main aaram se utha, thoda chill kiya… jaise har roz karta tha. Mujhe bilkul idea nahi tha ki aaj kuch aisa hone wala hai jo meri life ko hamesha ke liye change kar dega.
Shaadi ka mahaul full on tha — lights, music, logon ki hasi… sab kuch perfect lag raha tha. Main bhi sabke saath enjoy kar raha tha…
Tabhi meri nazar us prr nazar padi ...
Aur us ek pal mein kuch ajeeb sa feel hua. Jaise main usse pehle se jaanta hoon… jaise woh wahi hai jiska mujhe kab se intezaar tha, bina jaane hi.
Shayad yeh weird lage… par us waqt dil ne dimaag se zyada fast kaam kiya.
Woh mujhse ek saal badi thi… par us moment mein yeh cheez matter hi nahi kar rahi thi.
Main usse pehli baar meri cousin ki shaadi mein dekha… woh ladke walon ki taraf se aayi thi, baraat mein. Lights, music aur bheed ke beech… woh alag hi lag rahi thi.
Baaki sab log sirf log the… par woh — alag thi.
Main bas use dekhte reh gaya… bina kisi reason ke. Shayad uski smile, ya uska simple rehna… ya phir bas mera dil.
Par ek problem thi…
Woh mujhe jaanti bhi nahi thi.Main usse baar-baar dekh raha tha… kabhi baraat mein, kabhi reception party mein. Har baar usse dekh kar wahi ajeeb si feeling wapas aa jaati thi… jaise kuch connection ho, jo samajh nahi aa raha tha.
Main Haryana se hoon, aur yahan shaadiyon mein ek rasam hoti hai — vidai ke time, ladki ke ghar se koi 1–2 log uske saath ladke ke ghar jaate hain.
Shayad kismat thi… ya bas ek coincidence…
mujhe bhi di ke saath jaane ka chance mil gaya.
Us waqt mujhe bas itna laga ki main apni cousin ke saath ja raha hoon… par andar hi andar ek excitement bhi thi — pata nahi kyun.
Aur phir main di ke saath jija ji ke ghar pahunch gaya…
Aur jab main wahan enter kiya…
mera dil ek second ke liye ruk sa gaya.
Kyunki…
woh ladki bhi wahi rehti thi."Us pal mujhe samajh aa gaya… ki yeh sirf ek coincidence nahi ho sakta."To hmm vha jija ji k ghar gye the orr vha Wahan jija ji ke ghar sab log rasmein complete karne mein busy the… har taraf log, awaazein, rituals chal rahe the.
Par meri duniya us waqt sirf ek jagah ruk gayi thi…
us par.
Beech-beech mein hamare eye contact ho rahe the… ek baar nahi, baar-baar.
Jab bhi main usse dekhta… woh ya toh turant nazar hata leti, ya phir halki si smile de deti. Aur jab woh aisa karti… meri heartbeat achanak se itni fast ho jaati jaise control hi na ho.
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki yeh sab kya ho raha hai… par ek baat clear thi —
main usse ignore nahi kar paa raha tha.
Har ek chhota sa moment… har ek nazar… mere liye special ban raha tha.
Aur shayad… uske liye bhi.
Kyunki uski aankhon mein bhi kuch toh tha… jo normal nahi tha.
Par phir bhi…
hum dono ke beech abhi tak ek bhi word exchange nahi hua tha.
"Kabhi kabhi sirf nazrein hi kaafi hoti hain… par mujhe nahi pata tha ki yeh silence kab tak chalega."Aur phir… finally woh moment aa hi gaya.
Main abhi bhi usse hi dekh raha tha, completely lost… tabhi achanak woh mere paas aayi.
Thodi si serious, thodi si smile ke saath usne kaha —
"Rasam par bhi thoda dhyaan de do… sirf idhar hi dekhte rahoge kya?"
Uski awaaz bilkul simple thi… par mere liye woh ekdum alag thi.
Us ek line ne jaise mujhe reality mein wapas la diya… par saath hi kuch aur bhi ho gaya.
Main us moment mein pura melt ho gaya tha.
Mujhe samajh hi nahi aa raha tha kya bolun… bas halki si smile de di, aur nazar neeche kar li.
Dil itna fast dhadak raha tha ki lag raha tha aas-paas ke log bhi sun lenge.
Shayad usne notice bhi kiya… kyunki woh halki si muskuraayi, aur wapas rasmon mein busy ho gayi.
Par mere liye…
woh ek chhoti si baat nahi thi.
Woh meri life ka pehla moment tha… jab usne directly mujhse baat ki thi.
Aur us ek line ne… mere andar kuch permanently change kar diya."Mujhe nahi pata tha… ki yeh bas ek simple baat nahi, balki ek kahani ki shuruaat thi — jo itni aasaan nahi hone wali thi."
Aur us ek line ne… mere andar kuch permanently change kar diya.
Mujhe nahi pata tha… ki yeh bas ek simple baat nahi, balki ek kahani ki shuruaat thi — jo itni aasaan nahi hone wali thi.
Us raat sab kuch normal lag raha tha… log has rahe the, rasmein chal rahi thi…
par mere andar kuch bilkul normal nahi tha.
Main baar-baar usse dekh raha tha… aur har baar ek hi sawaal dimaag mein aa raha tha —
"Kya yeh sirf ek coincidence hai… ya phir kuch aur?"
Shayad us waqt mujhe jawab nahi mila…
par mujhe bilkul andaza nahi tha… ki agle hi din, mujhe uska jawab milne wala hai — aur woh meri expectations se kahin zyada tha...
To be continue....