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Chapter 1 - Loading Screen

The factory smelled like metal shavings and regret.

Month three was when Harley stopped noticing. That was the thing about bad things… and this is important, this is actually worth writing down somewhere… you adjusted. You had to. The brain was remarkably good at filing things away in the drawer labeled 'not changing, not worth the energy' and just getting on with it. Harley Watson had been filing things in that drawer since he was eight years old, sitting in his first group home with a garbage bag of belongings at his feet, waiting for someone to explain what happened next.

Nobody explained.

He figured it out himself.

And that, if you want to know the kind of person we are dealing with here, is the entire story of him.

He was the kind of person who could live through things that would hollow other people out, and still show up the next morning, hands moving, head down, doing the work. There was something almost painful about that kind of resilience. The kind that had never been given the luxury of falling apart.

So, the smell. The noise. The conveyor belt that moved at the specific speed of misery; not fast enough to panic, not slow enough to breathe. The fluorescent lights overhead that buzzed like something trapped and unhappy about it. All of it filed away. Eyes forward, hands moving, sort the casing, check the connector, pass it down; repeat until the body knows the rhythm better than it knows anything else about the person it belonged to.

Harley kept his head down.

He worked.

Right up until the moment his chest decided it was completely, categorically, finally done cooperating.

It started as tightness. The familiar kind; the kind you recognise the way you recognise an old problem dressed up in new clothes. He exhaled slowly, trying to breathe through it. Sometimes it passed; he had gotten good at waiting it out, going very still while his lungs staged their quiet little rebellion, keeping his face neutral because if it showed on his face then someone called someone and then there were forms and the shift supervisor Bale would look at him like equipment that had tripped a sensor.

"Harley?"

Sandra. Station beside his, twelve years on this line, the kind of woman who had genuinely seen everything and was not going to stand there watching someone suffocate when there was a yellow button on the wall specifically for this. She was already reaching before he could get his hand up.

"I'm fine, it's just—"

"You are not fine."

"Sandra, I really don't need—"

The bolt in his hand dropped to the floor. A small clean clink. Nobody else heard it over the machines. And somewhere between that sound and the next breath that did not come the way it was supposed to, the argument was over. The air was gone; just gone, throat narrowing, lights doing something strange at the edges, knees suddenly making a very compelling case for sitting down immediately.

They took him to the clinic.

It was nicer in there than anywhere else in the building because management used it too, which tells you everything you need to know about how priorities work. Actual carpet. Actual cushioning. A nurse who had chosen this job on purpose and still had the posture of someone who had not yet been broken by that decision. The inhaler appeared in his hand almost immediately and he pressed it to his lips and breathed. In. Slow. Out, slower. The tightness loosened like a fist opening; finger by finger, reluctant, then finally releasing.

The nurse sat beside him with the patience of someone waiting for a phone to charge.

"How long have you had it?"

"Long time." Rough voice. Thin. He hated the way it sounded; hated anything that made him seem less solid than he needed to be, "Since I was a kid."

"Prescription inhaler at home?"

A pause that lasted slightly too long, "...yeah."

She made a note. He stared at the ceiling. The lights in here were quieter than on the floor and that small mercy felt like the kindest thing the building had ever extended in his direction.

Bale appeared in the doorway maybe twenty minutes later, clipboard at his side, face arranged into the expression of a man who experiences inconveniences as a personal affront delivered specifically to him by the universe. He looked at Harley the way he looked at machinery that had gone offline at an inconvenient time; not with anger exactly, more with the clinical efficiency of someone who had already decided what happened next and was here to communicate the decision.

"Watson."

"I'm alright." Harley sat up straighter, which hurt, "I can go back to the floor, it was—"

"You are taking time off."

"I don't need—"

"Company policy after a medical incident." The pen came out, everyone fears the pen, "One week. Paid." A pause that had something inside it; not sympathy, not exactly, but something that sat right next to satisfaction and shared its lunch, "Consider it a gift."

Harley stared at him.

He knew. He was not the kind of person who was confused by things like this. Bale had been restructuring the floor for two weeks. A documented asthma attack was clean paperwork; a way to move the pieces without anyone asking the questions. The gift was not a gift. The paid week was not generosity. He had been very temporarily converted from a problem on the floor into a solved problem in a file.

But…

Seven days.

He signed the forms with a hand that was still slightly unsteady and did not let that bother him.

The walk out of the building was short. The door closed behind him and the metal-and-regret smell cut off like someone had flicked a switch, replaced immediately and completely by cold city air and exhaust fumes and the distant warm smell of something frying from the cart on the corner. He stood on the pavement.

And smiled.

Not the small careful kind either. The real kind; the involuntary kind, the kind that happened before he could think about it and was embarrassing in its wholeness. One hundred and sixty-eight hours. No belt, no lights, no Bale making his rounds like a man appointed personally by fate to ensure Harley Watson was performing at acceptable human output levels. A week. He turned the word over in his head like something he had found on the ground and was not sure he was allowed to keep.

He could not locate the last time a stretch of days had belonged entirely to him. Could not find it no matter where he looked.

He was going to live like a free man.

He did not know precisely what that looked like. But he had seven days to find out and nowhere to be. Which, for a boy who had spent most of his life having somewhere to be and very little choice about it, was almost too much to hold.

He walked first. That was the first free thing. No direction, no timer, no endpoint; just movement through the city at whatever pace felt honest. 

He bought a coffee from the cart for two dollars and it tasted like it had considered giving up somewhere in the middle of being made and then gone through with it anyway, and he drank every last drop of it standing on the corner watching buses pass. He looked in shop windows. He let himself get lost on a side street for fifteen minutes and did not panic about it, just noted the street signs and found his way back, which was, if you thought about it, a perfect small metaphor for his entire life.

The electronics store appeared when he turned back toward the main road. Warm and bright through its glass front, rows of things glowing softly inside. He had walked past it approximately three hundred times. Never gone in; places like that had a particular atmosphere, a space designed for people with disposable income, and Harley had never moved through the world as someone with disposable income. The browsing only felt comfortable when the money existed to back it up.

Today he went in anyway.

Free man. It was allowed.

The games section was toward the back and he drifted toward it with his hands in his jacket pockets, eyes moving over the cases with no urgency whatsoever. He was not looking for anything. He was just looking. 

"Looking for something specific?"

A kid in a store uniform. Maybe nineteen. The bright restless energy of a golden retriever who had been asked to stay for a very long time and was approaching the absolute outer limit of that request. The name tag said DEV and he was already angling toward Harley with the practiced inevitability of someone for whom this was both a job and genuine calling.

"Just browsing."

"Totally, totally, no pressure." A beat, one beat exactly, "Can I show you one thing though? Sixty seconds. That is all I am asking."

Harley stared at him.

One finger went up, "Sixty seconds."

Something about it was endearing, it was genuine enthusiasm that was hard to be cold about, "...go ahead."

The case came out from under the counter like it had been kept there specifically for this moment; dark on the cover, detailed corridors of shadow and torchlight, a figure descending into something that did not appear to have a bottom. The title sat in raised angular letters that caught the light.

INFINITE DUNGEON.

"Their fifth anniversary is this week," and now this was not a sales voice at all, this was a person who actually cared about the thing in their hands, which was somehow more disarming than any commission-driven pitch could have been, "This game has been running for five years and it is one of the most insane things ever made. The lore is ridiculous. People have been obsessed with it since launch." He held it up, "One dollar."

"One dollar?"

"One dollar. And that is not even the main event." He disappeared behind the counter and came back with a box; matte black, clean lines, larger than the game case. Inside it, sitting in foam cutouts, was a headset and a pair of padded gloves. The kind of equipment that had absolutely no business costing what the sticker suggested. Sensor nodes along the fingertips, temple padding that was genuinely soft. The headset visor tinted a deep, almost pretty blue, "Anniversary bundle. Full immersive setup. This alone is normally close to two hundred. Right now, game included, all of it—" a tap on the side of the box, "—one dollar. Tonight only."

Harley picked up the headset, turned it over. Lighter than it should have been. His brain made a quiet pragmatic note; this did not make sense for a dollar. Things that felt like this did not cost a dollar. 

"Why one dollar?" No matter how hard he thought about it, he couldn't justify it. He was a factory worker, it made no sense.

The shrug was whole-body, "Anniversary promo. They want new players in. Massive push. Apparently they want to do it every five years."

Harley's eyes were on the box. At the setup next to it. At the forty-three dollars in his bank account and the one hundred and sixty-eight hours stretching in front of him and the apartment he was going to be alone in, which he was not sad about but which was going to get very quiet very quickly.

"Alright," he had given in, "Ring it up before I think about it."

Dev beamed like he had just been plugged in.

When Harley got home, he ate first. Instant noodles at the counter, standing, which was maybe not what free men ate for dinner on their first free evening, but it was what he had and the noodles did not deserve his complicated feelings about it. He rinsed the bowl, put it on the rack, checked his phone; no messages, which was not surprising because the list of people likely to message Harley Watson was not a long one and that was simply a fact he had made peace with.

He moved the coffee table back. Cleared a space on the floor the way the quick-start booklet said to, which was mostly pictures, bless whoever made that decision. The headset cabled into the console with a soft click. The gloves paired wirelessly and confirmed with two small satisfying sounds.

He sat on the floor.

Put on the gloves.

It was just a game. He told himself this the way you tell yourself things that are mostly true. One dollar, one week, something to do with his hands. He would play for a couple of hours. He would fall asleep on the couch. Tomorrow he would figure out what else this week was going to be.

Just a game.

He put the headset on.

Pressed start.

The headache arrived immediately, sharp and concentrated, right behind both eyes, nothing like the dull post-attack ache he was still carrying, somehow like pressure trying to find space that his skull had not set aside for it. Both hands came up to the sides of the headset on pure instinct—

Then the light. Don't worry he isn't dead.

But it was inside his skull even though his eyes were closed and he was certain they were closed. It made no difference, because the light was not coming from outside. It was already in there. Floor disappeared or maybe he did, he could not locate the boundary between where he ended and where everything else began.

The impact was real.

Hands and knees into dirt; the jolt travelling all the way up through his palms and elbows and shoulders, he gasped.

A real gasp. Pulling real air into his lungs; air that smelled of rain and packed earth and something green, something alive, something that had never been in his apartment. He pressed both palms flat against the ground and felt it; cold, gritty, present in the way that simulations were not present.

He stayed still for just a moment, then he looked up.

The trees were enormous. Everywhere. Trunks wide and dark, canopies tangled overhead into something that swallowed whatever sky existed above it. The light was strange; faint and sourceless, belonging to no particular sun. A real breeze moved through the branches. He felt it against his face, felt the temperature of it, felt his own hair shift. Something small moved in the undergrowth with a rustle so textured, that his brain processed it as undeniable fact before his mind had caught up to what that meant.

This was not a display.

"Okay," he voiced out loud. To the trees. His voice came back to him slightly muffled by the canopy and that was perhaps the strangest detail of all, the acoustics of a real place behaving like a real place, "Okay…What???"

He got to normal height slowly. Legs worked. Hands worked. The gloves were still on, the headset however was not on his head, which should have been impossible. He pressed both hands against his own face and felt it; jaw, cheekbone, the solid particular reality of himself. He pressed his palm against the nearest trunk. Bark; rough, real, a small piece of it flaking off under the pressure the way bark did.

Not rendered. Real.

Something moved in the dark to his right. He should not have turned but he did anyway.

The wolf came out of the dark without a single syllable of warning. It was enormous and dark-coated, pale eyes catching the sourceless light and throwing it back like two small headlamps. It was a genuinely unreasonable size for a wolf. 

At first it looked like it would not do anything but then it launched itself and Harley threw himself sideways on pure instinct, zero thought involved, hitting the ground hard as the jaws snapped shut on the air where his shoulder had been half a heartbeat before.

"HELP!" Extremely reasonable response. Completely reasonable.

He scrambled backward on his hands, fingers digging into the dirt. The wolf faced him, taking its time, which felt like an insult on top of everything else. It tracked him with those pale eyes and lowered its massive head and gathered itself again, and he was looking, desperately, for anything solid that could be held, a stick, a rock, a branch, anything but finding only roots and dirt and the general unhelpfulness of forests.

Halrye thought he was dinner until someone dropped out of a tree and landed directly on the wolf's back with a short blade already drawn and moved with it instead of fighting it, entirely comfortable with the chaos, redirecting the animal's weight until the wolf stumbled sideways and then simply retreated into the tree line with a sound that could only be described as deeply embarrassed.

The figure straightened slowly, maybe twenty-five, Lean build, close-cropped hair, dark skin, dressed in layered practical clothes that showed the specific wear of things that had actually been used in the field and not bought yesterday. 

The blade was already sheathed and calm eyes moved over Harley on the ground with the patience of someone who had already been through their own version of this and came out the other side into something resembling steadiness.

"Get up." he urged Harley, his eyes glanced their surroundings to make sure there was not going to be another surprise attack, "Being on the ground here is how things find you."

Harley got up, both hands were shaking and he was not going to pretend otherwise, but he got up.

"Where—" Too many questions arriving simultaneously, a complete traffic jam behind his teeth. "What was that thing, where are we, who are you—"

"Namir." His saviour introduced himself but to him that was not top priority, "We should move and talk. Staying in one place draws things."

"Draws things?" he couldn't believe his ears, "What kind of things?" fear was getting a better grip on him.

"Bigger than that." A nod toward where the wolf had disappeared, his lips pursed slightly until the forest chose this precise moment to confirm his point; something deeper in the dark shifted its weight, and the sound of it moved through Harley's chest before it reached his ears.

"Right!" He fell into step too quickly. His brain was running at approximately three times its normal speed and still failing to process things fast enough, "Okay, so, moving. Good. Where are we going, and also, significantly more importantly — where are we." A lot of emphasis was placed on the 'are'

"Inside the game."

Harley froze, the other man glanced back, patiently waiting for him to come out of his shock and start walking again.

"Inside the game?" Harley repeated, and the words felt strange in his mouth, like he was trying to say them in a language he only partially spoke, "Like… Inside Infinite Dungeon." he drawed.

"Yes."

"As in… I am not in my apartment looking at a screen?"

"No."

"I am here. Here here. Physically here."

"Your full consciousness," They both held expressionless faces but behind them, Harley was freaking out and Namir was really just blank, "The anniversary update changed something about the headset. You put it on and you actually come here. Not a simulated experience. Not a display. You." he paused for a minute to let it sink in, "I know how it sounds..."

He was still at a loss of words, he didn't know what to say. Everything felt so real, hell, he felt real, it simply could not just be rendering. But slowly he was starting to pick up, but with more questions rather than answers.

"And the headset?" 

"Gone when you arrive. That is just how it works."

"And logging out. Getting home. Going back to—"

Namir's eyes tightened a bit when Harley mentioned going home. An emotion spread across his face, it wasn't fear really but rather uncertainty. He had already asked this question multiple times, but there was no answer but he promised himself that he would move regardless of there being no answer.

"Nobody has," his voice was softer, almost a whisper, "Not yet."

Harley processed this. Barely.

The forest pressed in around them, indifferent to the fact that Harley Watson had just been told he was trapped inside a one dollar video game he had purchased six hours ago on a whim because he had a week off and forty-three dollars in his bank account. The universe had a very particular sense of humor and he was beginning to think it was aimed directly at him.

"Okay," he croaked, not because it was okay. It was the furthest thing from okay. But it was the only word that fit in his mouth right now and his brain was still catching up and the forest was making sounds and they needed to be moving, "So what do we do?"

A small not-quite-smile moved across Namir's face, "We survive. And then we find a way to beat it." a breath in and a breath out, "I have been here a while. I know how some of it works."

"How long is a while?"

"Long enough to learn what the wolves do before they charge."

Harley absorbed that and thought about everything. He thought about the conveyor belt. He thought about Bale and his clipboard and the one dollar sticker on that box and the sixty seconds of a nineteen-year-old's enthusiasm that had led him to this exact moment; standing in an impossible forest with a stranger who caught him before a wolf ate him, about to walk deeper into something he did not understand.

He finally let the breath he was holding.

Free man, he thought. Living like a free man indeed..

"Alright," he gathered his wits, moving to Namir's side, "Lead the way. And while you do, tell me everything."

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