Mera naam Sumit hai… ek simple sa ladka.
Na main class ka topper hu, na bilkul last… bas ek average student.
School me bhi log mujhe jyada notice nahi karte.
Main na toh bahut zyada bolta hu, na kisi se unnecessary baat karta hu.
Mere 2–3 hi close friends hain, aur main unke saath hi rehna pasand karta hu.
Abhi recently maine apne 10th ke board exams diye hain…
Aur sach kahu toh… sab papers utne ache nahi gaye.
Maths ka paper dekhte hi meri halat kharab ho gayi thi.
Jo questions maine expect kiye the, wo aaye hi nahi…
Aur jo aaye, unme se aadhe samajh hi nahi aaye.
Exam hall me baith ke jab maine paper dekha, toh kuch seconds ke liye mera dimag bilkul blank ho gaya tha.
Teacher baar baar bol rahi thi, "Start writing…"
Par mera pen chal hi nahi raha tha.
Maine somehow thoda bohot likha…
Par andar se pata tha — ye paper acha nahi gaya.
Baaki subjects bhi kuch khas nahi the.
Kuch theek gaye, par kuch me bas passing marks aajaye… wahi hope hai.
Exam khatam hone ke baad sab friends bahar discuss kar rahe the:
"Arre easy tha yaar!"
"Full marks aayenge isme toh…"
Main chup tha.
Main bas unki baate sun raha tha aur soch raha tha—
"Kya sirf mujhe hi difficult laga?"
Ghar aake mummy ne poocha,
"Paper kaisa gaya?"
Maine hamesha ki tarah ek hi jawab diya—
"Thik tha…"
Par andar se main bilkul sure nahi tha.
Ghar ki situation bhi itni strong nahi hai.
Papa roz mehnat karte hain, kabhi complain nahi karte…
Mummy bhi hamesha mujhe support karti hain.
Kabhi kabhi jab main unhe dekhta hu na…
Toh lagta hai ki mujhe unke liye kuch acha karna chahiye.
Par fir ek thought aata hai—
"Agar main fail ho gaya toh?"
Ye thought mere dimaag me baar baar repeat hota rehta hai.
Raat ko sone jaata hu toh neend bhi properly nahi aati.
Bas ceiling ko dekhte hue wahi sochta rehta hu—
"Result kab aayega…"
"Aur agar kharab aaya toh kya hoga…"
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai kaash time wapas mil jata…
Main aur ache se padhai karta…
Aur mistakes repeat nahi karta.
Par ab kuch change nahi ho sakta.
Ab sirf wait hai…
Result ka.
Aur sach kahu toh…
Main darr raha hu.
Bahut zyada.
Kyunki mujhe nahi pata—
Result wale din meri life thodi better hogi… ya aur mushkil.