The cold air hit the window, the noisy wind roared outside. It was cold, and very cold. Not just any cold, a bone-shattering cold, the kind that made my hair stand on end.
My name? Who am I? What am I?
I... I'm not so sure, but from what I've been told, I'm Helena, the daughter of Commander Helios, and I'm also the chief knight who protects the emperor
- Darius Declyur, a tall and handsome man, with white hair with small, but long gray hairs at the end of each hairline, with slightly dark copper-colored skin, a sign that he spent the day in the harsh and cruel sun of this kingdom, and the body was... muscular.
Despite his irrefutable beauty, I couldn't help but hate him with every fiber of my body.
The man was cynical and a liar, what a beautiful combination.
In front of people he would smile and act like a hero about to throw himself into the sea to save a defenseless drowning baby, but then behind their backs he would kill the baby and force me to hide the body somewhere far away, in the wolves' cave, or in the sea of Frereis Farmi.
The man was an insane and wicked monster who forced me to hide his evil deeds, and woe betide me if I didn't, he was the emperor, and I was just a female chief knight, what can I do but mourn?
All this irritates me, everything happened the way it happened due to the greed of what I call father, Oh, how happy I am, father; having to kill and hide...
I... want a prince who will come and save me from this world, I want a god to send me to another world, or perhaps the beautiful and complex concession that is death will come to me, on a dark day, to seek me out and take me to the end of everything, the end of the end... But what good is a charming prince if he, most likely, will be like Darius.
After five minutes of complaining about that pile of manure, I finally get up and go take a shower. Unlike other riders, I give importance to my hygiene, but even so, there are times when I forget to take a shower, especially after training.
After a quick shower, I dress in my golden armor and head to the main part of the castle, after all I am not allowed to sleep in the castle, only the emperor, the maids and the trash brother — Julius — had that right; Of course, kings who came here to talk and stuff like that also had that right, but what am I?
Ah, yes, the commander's daughter, the one who is a woman and ugly and brutish and stupid and very tall and uneducated and very clear and useless and... I don't know anymore.
Throughout my life, I have been called so many names that I don't even remember most of them; It's funny that when it comes to being bad, human beings know how to be very creative, look at the millions of torture techniques they've already invented! Anyway...
The doors to the main part of the palace were beautiful, golden with inlays of diamonds and rubies, with a silver outline and, at the bottom, a design of a sea "painted" with sapphires.
I knock on these doors and the doorman takes me to my emperor.
The emperor was... sad? No, he should just... forget it, he's sad, now, why? I remember burying the woman who spoke badly about him the other day. Is she still alive? No she can't, she had a broken skull, but if that's not the reason, then... what is it?
Seeing me kneel at his feet, Darius touches my hair and strokes me.
"Good morning, your majesty", I proclaim with feigned happiness and respect.
"Oh!" and looks me in the eyes with a sad smile, very unusual for his insensitive character. "I saw... things...! Horrible things and... people dying in a cruel way, Helena..." he stops talking and says with a tear escaping from his right eye and after a few seconds he returns.
"Yesterday I had a dream, and it wasn't one of those dreams where I turn into a god and kill everyone, but one of those where... it's not a dream, it's actually a dark nightmare, a nightmare that sucked the useful life out of me, it felt like I'd been there a whole life, without happiness, just sadness; without connection to what makes life life, you know? In that nightmare, I saw a monster with red and yellow hair, worse than me, kill and rape everyone and everything he saw in another world, a lying monster who lies to himself and says he loves his father, but then spends the rest of his life without paying any attention. And then there is this boy, a true hero who believes in honor and respect, but unfortunately..." the emperor starts crying and for the first time in 500 years of total drought, the first drop of water falls.
To anyone who says that water symbolizes life and prosperity, I hope this is true, I want to prosper, I want the king to let me go and I want... to live...