Chapter 50: Zein Shion
Zein's Point of View....
What's with me? I mean, the sun isn't even out yet, but I'm already awake. I glanced at the wall clock before sipping my coffee.
5:30 am...
"Why is time so slow?" I whispered to myself before sipping my coffee again.
"Time will really be slow, especially if you're following the movement of its hands."
I almost spat out my coffee in surprise when Vanessa suddenly appeared and went straight into the comfort room.
Why am I watching the time? Hmmm? Yeah, she's coming back today. Her one-week suspension is over.
They can't take away my excitement because we haven't seen each other for a long time, and my feelings for her are still the same. Nothing has changed, and nothing will change. I can't shake off the longing.
I heard the comfort room door open, but I didn't bother to look; instead, I just stared at the empty cup in front of me.
Shit! I miss him so damn much as hell! I can't deny it anymore. I know they all know that because it's obvious anyway, but what do I care? It's true anyway. Psh.
"He still loves you... don't worry."
I glared at Vanessa who was making coffee. "What?" she asked irritably.
I just pouted and put the cup I used in the sink before returning to my seat where Van's eyes followed me.
"Stop staring..."
"So this is how you are when you're in love..."
"What?" Now it was my turn to be irritated.
She shrugged before smirking. I raised my eyebrow and was about to speak when another door opened.
"A miracle—" Jerome said in a chant tone with a wide grin staring at me.
I looked away because of his teasing eyes. I heard Vanessa's faint laugh.
"My Vanessa?"
I looked at Jerome because of what he said. He was looking at Vanessa who was grimacing at him.
"When did I become your property?"
"Yesterday. Starting from when you kissed me."
My eyes widened at what Jerome said, and in an instant, there was a live action in front of me again.
"Stop it, you dog! FYI! I tripped then!" Vanessa shouted while pulling Jerome's hair, who was now sprawling on the floor.
OH.MY.GHAD!
"Tripped? And on my lips? Your fart—Ouch! It hurts Vanko."
I just laughed. It was noticeable that while Vanessa was beating up Jerome, he was smiling like a dog. Oh men! Tell me, what's with them? It's obvious that their feelings are mutual. Ghad! This is love.
I went to our room first and left the two who were still beating each other up. Mia, who had already taken over the whole bed, was still asleep.
I looked in the mirror and accidentally my eyes went down to my lips.
Fuck you, Raze.
UGH! I still can't accept that he stole a kiss from me yesterday after messing up my system. I don't know what to do now.
Because of what he said, I'm now doubting things, and I don't want this to end up as a mistake again.
"Darling... please come back."
Sorry but I can't. We've been hurt, and I don't want all my sacrifices to be for nothing. Let's just leave everything to fate.
There's another disaster coming, so it's better this way. I don't want to be your weakness.
I almost ran all the way to the SSG Office. Good thing all the students on the way would move aside when they saw me, so I didn't bump into anyone. Shit!
Breathing heavily, I stopped at the door of the SSG Office and fixed myself first. I let a heavy sigh as I open the door knob. With every widening space going inside, my heart pounded as if it was about to explode.
...the Supremo was not there to greet me. I didn't know what to feel when...
Where the hell is him?
I woke up to reality when I heard someone clear their throat behind me. Embarrassed, I made way for Vice Ty who entered with a smirk.
I just went straight to my table and didn't show how broken I was. Is he still not here? Where is he? Why is he doing this to me? Is he punishing me? Supremo...
"Is Supremo still not here?" I heard Vice Ty ask.
"Is it obvious?"
I couldn't help but snap at him, which only made him laugh. I just pouted and leaned my back against the swivel chair.
I looked at his vacant table.
FUCK YOU TO INFINITY AND BEYOND, SUPREMO.
"Maybe he's not coming back anymore?"
I stood up at what Vice Ty said, who was now laughing really hard. I felt a bit embarrassed that I was overacting. Damn, Zein. You are too obvious.
I just sat down again and folded my arms.
"I was just joking. Actually, we already met earlier."
My eyes lit up because of what he said, which widened his grin even more. OH.MY.GHAD! They already met!
That means he might be here soon.
I can't wait any longer!
"I thought he was here already... Well, let's just wait for him. He might be here later too."
For the first time, I felt like just staying here in the SSG Office and waiting for his return, but unfortunately, I still have class.
"You're not going to class?" Vice Ty asked when he noticed I had no intention of going to class.
I shook my head and remained with my arms folded.
"You'll be in trouble if you don't go to class."
"As if I care. I am the Queen."
"And he is the Supreme Student Government President."
"Thank you for the info." I said annoyedly, grabbing my bag before leaving that place.
Iritably, I entered my Algebra Class where I found my friends joking around. I ignored them and went straight to my seat between Mia and Vanessa.
"Let me guess... He wasn't there, right?" Mia teased.
I didn't bother to answer because I wasn't in the mood to argue. My day was already ruined, and I didn't want anything more added to it.
If you don't want to show up... then don't! As if I even want to see you. Psh.
"Pity you... You already want to see him but do you think he wants to see you too?"
My eyebrow raised at what Vanessa said. "What do you mean?" I asked bravely.
"Maybe he's just spending his time on someone else... You know?"
"Like what?"
She just shrugged and looked away. My mouth was about to open again when our teacher arrived.
I couldn't focus on the lesson because of what Vanessa said. It was bothering me.
Is it possible he's busy with something else? With what? Or worst, with whom?
What right do I have to be angry if he is busy with someone else? Or if he's with someone else now? I admit that if it's true, I will be jealous. Even if I have no right, I will really be jealous.
I expected these possibilities, but I still can't help but be afraid. I'm afraid that I might not matter to him anymore.
It's stupid, but I want that whatever happens, it's still me. I wish, I am still your Queen. I hope it's still me.
"You're not coming with us?" Matt asked when he saw that I was heading in a different direction.
"I'm still full."
"Are you really full or maybe you-"
"Bye!" I cut Mia off before walking away from them.
It's true that I was still full, even though I hadn't eaten breakfast yet. I couldn't feel the hunger. All I wanted was to see him.
So what if I see him?
Anyway! I just want to see him. My two eyes want to see that he's okay. I think I'm going crazy.
When I arrived at the SSG Office, I found no one. Supremo still wasn't there. Vice Ty was probably out for lunch.
I stared blankly into space while my mind raced with so many things where he was always present.
I couldn't stop thinking even just a second without him crossing my mind. This is insane!
The door opened so my spirit lifted but-
It wasn't him.
It had only been a few days since we last saw each other, but I was already like this.
"Oh, why are you here?" Teacher Kath asked. "Have you had lunch?" She asked further.
I just shook my head because I no longer had the strength to open my mouth. I was also getting annoyed at myself for how I was acting.
I had been waiting for hours so I decided to go to the comfort room first because I needed to pee.
I found Nicky washing her hands, but I went straight to one of the cubicles. I didn't go out yet because I didn't want to see Nicky for a while.
I stayed there for a few minutes before I decided to come out. I was surprised to see her leaning against the door. Her gaze was overwhelming so I just chose to avoid it.
"I know what's bothering you..."
This is what I was talking about. SHe can read people quickly so I didn't want him to see me. Shit! I wish she would just not speak and I also don't want to hear what he's going to say.
"I saw him..." I stopped washing my hands but still didn't look at her. "With someone." She added, which really caught my attention.
She smirked with a trace of teasing.
"I'm not asking." I answered, which made her laugh softly.
"But that's not what I see in your eyes." My gaze dropped at what she said.
Damn!
"You are so fragile... easy to break. Where is the devil?" She asked. "Let it go, Zein. Protect yourself." These were the last words she left before she completely left me.
I was left stunned.
Devil?
When I returned to the SSG Office, he was still not there. I could no longer hide the bitterness and pain I was feeling. Damn!
Hours passed but still no Supremo arrived. He must be so busy with someone that he forgot his responsibility. Really, Supremo?
A strange feeling was building inside me. Why am I having this feeling?
Supremo, don't do this. Please.
I'm getting scared with every passing minute that he's still not here. I feel something inside me that I don't like. No. Please. I hate this feeling.
"Are you sure?" Vice Ty asked me.
I just nodded before looking at the wall clock. It's already 6:00 pm, 1 hour before bloody night.
I sighed and took responsibility for closing the SSG Office.
How many hours have I been staring blankly? I didn't even attend my next subjects just to see him arrive, but still nothing. I haven't eaten yet, but I really couldn't feel the hunger.
I bit my lip.
I looked at the vacant table beside me.
Where are you?
6:30pm
I decided to leave. I don't know what this strange feeling is inside me. I have a bad feeling that this is not good. A strange feeling.
I feel like I've been disregarded.
It's a bit dark because it's only 30 minutes until bloody night. I stopped walking when I saw a shadow in the dark.
Shit!
My heart pounded and I felt like a statue where I stood. He was standing with his hands in his pockets, his back to me, as if waiting for someone.
I couldn't be wrong. It was him. When have I ever been wrong when it comes to him? I know him so well.
I was about to run towards him when I saw someone arriving. My heart exploded at the scenes that followed.
Angel and Ace are kissing passionately.
And the scariest part is that I am smiling. Fucking shit?! I shouldn't be smiling but why the hell am I smiling like a shit?!
This ain't good. Swear.
I just found myself continuing to walk. I touched my cheek when I felt it was wet. I can't feel my body. Am I numb?
I should be hurting but I can't really feel even just a glimpse of pain.
Still I am smiling.
I am scared right now. I am scared for myself. I feel like I don't know myself anymore.
Only one thing is running through my mind right now... Something will change in me after this night. I'm afraid to face tomorrow.
What is happening to you, Zein Shion?
This is the most scared I've ever been... I'm scared of myself.