"She is my friend Kritika" So that's her name.
"Kritika is a nice name." I said trying to avoid this awkward situation.
"Come in."
And so we were seated at the study with both of them competing to see who would give the right answer faster and me correcting them. It was fun seeing the two of them correcting each other and explain where the other went wrong so that both of them could avoid that situation.
"The power is 1/50"
"That's incorrect."
"How?"
"I don't get it either."
"It's easy, you'll get it. Let me explain."
"Oh I forgot converting focal length into meters"
"And I made a calculation error."
"Let's move on to next question."
Honestly I was having so much fun. Then the doorbell rang. It was Moksh.
"You have the royal invitation to the feast."
"Let's go."
"I should get going." Said Kritika.
"Come on let's have lunch together."
"Won't I be disturbing you."
"No not at all both my mother and aunt like it when I have friends over."
"I am super hungry, what's there in lunch." Said Chandresh in his kidish tone.
Just like I said my mother and aunt loved having them over.
"Aunty I don't like this." Ofcourse Chandresh threw tantrumsm.
"What do you want to eat then"
"Can I have a parathan with buter and pickels"
"Here you go."
If you have not realised Chandresh has not only stolen my place in my own house he now has more importance than me. Yeah, in my own house. It sucks! Mummy wouldn't stop saying that I was just like him when I was a kid. But I don't remember complanning that I don't like the food and I will not eat it, or talking nonsense nonstop, or eating biscuits like my life depended on it, or getting dirty all the time. I was a well behaved and a neat child unlike the monster of a human named Chandresh. Huh! Not like I can do anything within my power to stop this evil creature from getting my mummy's all attention.
Vaishnavi and Chandresh were like family now. Both their parents are never around the house, so in a way I don't mind them being here. All I mind is Chandresh threatening me all the time. No matter what happens he says 'If you don't do this I will tell Auntie that you hit me.'
In a way he is like a little Aarush or should I say Winnie The Pooh. Haha! It's just so hilarious that his sister compares him to a honey eating fat bear.
I could tell that Kritika was quite awkward about having lunch with us. Couldn't blame her though. Just by looking at her I could tell she was a well behaved girl. In a way it's funny how small this world is, but in a way it's wholesome as well. Never in my life did I ever think that I would meet her somewhere except the bookstore.
After having our lunch we sat down to finish the chapter. It didn't toke long and soon we were done. Kritika and Vaishnavi thanked me for helping her, meanwhile Chandresh wouldn't stop saying that he wanted to sleep. That kid!
Rest of the day went on like usual. The three of us goofed around a bit. It was evening and all of us sat down to have a usual Sunday chit chat. Mummy was telling us how Mrs. Sharma (our next door neighbor) was a little sad that her son had moved out for college.
"Kids grow up eventually." Said my Aunt
"Yeah, you are right. You can't keep them in the house forever they move out for college and job."
"Where is his college?"
"New Delhi."
"Oh, yeah daily up down would have been really tiring."
Just then a notification popped up on Mummy's phone.
"Chandni, there is a message in your classgroup."
It was a circular about a trip going to Jaipur. It included four days and three nights. Well not like I bother, not like I have any friends to have fun with, not like I want any friends. I like my company.
"Oh it is just about a trip."
"Where is it going?"
"Jaipur"
"When is it going?"
"On the 1st."
"How long is it?"
"Four days and three night."
"So are you considering going?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"I just don't wanna go."
"Come on you should totally go."
"I really don't wanna go."
"Come on, that's how you make memories in your school life. It is your final year. Trust me you will regret not going later. Besides, you get to live your school life only once."
"Fine!"
It only took Papa minutes to make the payment. My family cares about me so much. It's so sweet. Besides what's the worst possible thing me spending four days bored. Well not bored I will keep my novel.
It was night I was lying in my bed, recalling all that had happened. It is still unbelievable that I met Kritika. I like that girl if I could I would try to be friends with her. And now there was this trip. I was wondering what I will do on it.
In a way it felt nice, really nice. Maybe this was the life of a normal school going teenager. It is nice. Maybe I was becoming a normal teenager living my life free from my past, free from who I once was. Or maybe it was just wishful thinking. Somethings you really never recover from. Somethings I can never runaway from. I still had to consider the sins I had committed. The person I once was. How can I feel like I can be normal once again? Sometimes I find it almost funny how far dreaming can take you from reality. No matter how 'normal' I pretend to be I will forever be a blood stained assasin from the core. Sometimes I just wanna disappear. Disappear into thin air. Disappear so no one could find me. Erased from everyone's memories. No matter where I am, how I am, what I am, there is this one constant unwavering feeling 'Sometimes I just want to disappear.'