Bernd Leno
I found him showing his doubts over me, I didn't care.
I think I did the right thing to share my feedback. Before Euro, I needed him to tell me everything before getting busier. I hope to hear the same from him.
I wanted to ask him to tell me his pasts, so far I know about him. I want relevant clearances about it. I basically never talk about the topics I don't know full or I heard as a passer-by. As for him, it was about each of the topics, I heard only half or 1 to 2 percent. But each of them are unfitted with the situation. Like, he is remaining good with me now, but the matters didn't sound even close.
"Can I ask something?" I asked for permission. He strangely looked. "Hm." He said. I didn't say what I was going to ask, but rather, "Why had you wanted trust when you're not showing or saying anything so that I can guess the reason for wanting it?" I couldn't ignore the smile on his face. It was mortifying, hidden.
As he didn't speak, I told, "I remember you mentioned it wasn't about personal and profession. Can I ask then what it is about?" He comes to normal feedback and sighs deeply. "Ahm! About my life before accepting you as my husband." "So, isn't it personal?" I asked instantly after he stopped. He again smiles, and again, it is cumbersome. "No, it's not. I wish it was. But if you consider it, I will tell you soon. Not now, please." He said further. As I appreciated, "No, of course. Take your time. I am not asking to tell it now. But I had a confusion, that's it." I told him.
All of a sudden, I felt like it was the first night in his house. Although it's not. I can not let it go with the matters that aren't suitable with it. So, I asked a question I should have asked before the wedding.
"Hey," I called him hushly. He gave his attention. "Did you know my name before getting married?" I asked curiously. I looked at his questionable face. I was still wondering what would I answer if he asked me exactly the same. "I certainly did. Why?" "Wait. You didn't react after hearing my name?" Before he could finish, I asked. "It is a long story-" "Please tell." I literally hold his hand and tell him, then instantly puts it off.
I saw his unseen reaction. But I honestly wanted to know.
He moves to fit with his position. "Alright." He tells me, which made me more excited. "I will tell you shortly." "Yeah, no problem." I said. As he starts, "Firstly, yes, I reacted after hearing your name. But before there is a long history, I considered it as my past, I would tell you later, maybe before or after Euro. I am skipping it now. Just note line that after the situation, I did not want to get married. But it affects my family, too. So, for the happiness and peace of my family, I was forced by the obligations. They did not force me directly. But I was the reason they became victims of me. Marriage is the only way left to bring some strength in the unity. That's why I chose the decision to get married. However, it was my fixed feedback until I heard your name. By the way, I never knew our family was connected-" "Nor did I," I cut him off with a jerk.
But he continues, with his speed, "So, my parents wanted me get married with their closer someone. I don't know. After your parents confirmed everything with my family, I heard your name. I-I was shocked-" I saw he laughs instantly while describing it, I loved it. "-The moment was like my mama mentioned that you were from Germany. I took it strangely, why so far! And thinking they have no connections even outside of the city, but it was another country. Then, she told me he is a footballer, you should know him. And I was like, seriously? She was saying, he and you have played premier league. You should know him." My heart was beating with her words. I had no clue what the name she was going to mention. Then, she told me your name-"
"Yeah. How did you take it that one footballer from Premiere League, even from Fulham. I mean, not even close to the city so that they can dream about Madrid's captain, was going to marry you?"