In the morning I woke up again and the first thing I saw was Evelyn, she gently woke me up for school and placed a mini table tray with breakfast on my lap. She wasn't always overprotective, but lately, she had become more concerned about my well-being, she smiled warmly and told me that she had prepared the bathroom for me and the food for school.
After I finished eating, showered, and got dressed, Evelyn brushed my hair and then drove me to school. We were silent the whole way, playing music on the car radio.After I finished eating, showered, and got dressed, Evelyn brushed my hair again and then drove me to school. We were silent the whole way, playing music on the car radio. I looked out the window and realized that I was still paranoid. I saw things that weren't there. It seemed so real, but as soon as I looked away and then looked back, it was gone. It's frustrating. It annoyed me.
When we arrived at school, Evelyn told me before I could get out: "Please stay in touch, always text me. Let me know if you're not feeling well, or text Kaito or Tokasan. Both have their names saved in your phone and are always reachable, just like me. If you feel uncomfortable around someone, let me know. Text immediately. Got it?"<< Evelyn sounds extremely worried, so emotional in her words. But I understand. I think. She get outs and openes the door, and led me out of the car. She straighten my clothes again ran her hand through my hair to tidy it up again and smiled warmly at me. She has change so much because of me. I changes her. Evelyn caresses over my shoulders and says: >>"I'll be here before school ends, I'll never be late. I'll count every second, okay? I promise"<< I nod and put my hands over her and answer: >>"I'll look forward to it."<< I give her a little smile but I know it was a smile that doesn't reach my eyes, but I see Evelyn appreciates it. She is happy that I smile in the first place, she reluctantly lets me go, knowing that she had no choice and has to let me go.
I then walk slowly and often look back at Evelyn. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to be away from her, but I have to at least stay until I finish school. Then I can stay home, Evelyn promised me that I can stay at home when finished school. As soon as I got inside, Mr. Yoshikage came towards me. He smiled gentle and said: >>"Rin, I'm happy to see you again. How did you feel? I hope you feel better now. Do you wanna talk to me ? You look like you want."<< I look at him, my memories comes back and I remembered again what happened. I didn't want to remember but the school and Yoshikage don't make it easy to forget or suppress this. >>"I'll come to your room during the break, Mr. Yoshikage, if you have time, of course."<< I answered a little uncertainly, where he put his hand on my shoulder and slowly accompanied me to my room: >>"Oh Rin. Of course I have something for you today, I mean. What happens to you... This is absolutely not okay, and I'll make room for you if necessary. I want to help you as best as I can. I'll be expecting you at break time or after school, whatever you prefer, little one"<< With a gentle smile, he then disappeared into the school hallway and left me standing in front of the classroom. I look after him and the then turned to the classroom and get in, I observed the my classmates who entered the room and sat down and I noticed that the two boys were still there. >>"Why ? Why are this two still there ? They got away with it? Why!? But-! No, no, no... I can't let myself be influenced, I have to concentrate... But - but how... I can't..."<< I thought to myself.
The class passed silently, muffled, and my thoughts were the only thing that filled my hearing and my mind. I couldn't really learn anything, how could I? How could it be that these two weren't punished? I was relieved that those boys weren't staring at me again, perhaps I can still concentrate on the lesson even though the mere presence of the two of them still makes me nervous. I tried to pay attention in class as much as possible but it was almost impossible, I looked out the window and only worked on my worksheets and books, so I could really be present. This two boys didn't looked at me throughout the entire hour, as if nothing had ever happened. As if I had never been there.
When the break began I sat still and quietly for a moment, My other classmates were talking, laughing, and having fun. I sighed slightly, before packing my things and getting my food out. During the break, I ate in peace until class started again. This class was no different until the real break began. I got up and made my way to Mr. Yoshikage on the way, I avoided meeting the two boys and also avoided all possible conversations. Mr. Yoshikage was already waiting for me. I knocked.
Mr. Yoshikage, immediately called me in and prepared the tea with a warm, gentle smile and saying: "Rin, how lovely that you're here. I thought you were coming, I'm happy to see I'm right. How can I help you."<< This smile, my stomach says: >>"His smile looked warm, but something in his eyes felt… wrong. I couldn't tell why"<< I sat down on the opposite from Mr. Yoshikage, and he poured me tea. Meanwhile, I looked around his room, or rather his office, and didn't notice anything unusual. It was rather overly clean, Everything was properly organized and there was no dust anywhere. Not a speck of dust on his desk. There were piles of documents, but everything was sorted and straight. On his desk was a picture of that I can't see, it is turning away from me, I only saw the back of the picture. Not more. >>"Thank you, Mr. Yoshikage and... i'm not sure... I'm feeling a little unsettled, I'm sorry, Mr. Yoshikage."<< Mr. Yoshikage smiles again at me with the same smile and answered me: >>"It's okay Rin, that's normal that you feel this way. You don't have to feel sorry, I'm a very patient person and I have time and patience with you."<< His words are kind and calming but his smile is disturbing and seems wrong, something about him makes me feel uneasy but what and why... unfortunately I don't know... I didn't drink the tea, I didn't feel comfortable enough with him to drink his tea yet. Evelyn told me in the last few weeks that I shouldn't accept anything from anyone I didn't trust. Is that also applied to Mr. Yoshikage ? I don't know, she already said that she doesn't trust Mr. Yoshikage. I should not forget that.
>>"Mr. Yoshikage, there are two boys... They did this to me, why are they still here? In class and at school..."<< Mr. Yoshikage He seems surprised and leans forward, interested. It seems he doesn't know who I'm talking about, I continue: >>"Those two did this to me; they were the reason you found me the way I was. I don't want to be in the same class as them; I don't want to see those two..."<< Mr. Yoshikage listen to me attentive and answered gentle and thoughtful: >>"I understand Rin. I can see what I can do for you, I mean you must understand. There's no evidence as to which boys those were. I'm sorry, Rin. But I can try to get you or the boys into a different class."<< I listened and his words hit me hard, the boys get away with it? How unfair... Life is unfair... They leave me destroyed and broken and they don't get punished. Why who will stop them? I must speak with Evelyn after school. >>"I'll then change my class, but please to one with a classroom where I can look out the window again. I've been told I need lots of greenery from trees and meadows now, that's good for my psyche."<< Mr. Yoshikage nodded and made a note of it. >>"I'll take care of it and see what I can do. Teachers and principals will be meeting in the next few days. I'll join the meeting and talk to everyone about it."<< I nodded in understanding and thanked him, and the bell rang for the end of class. >>"I have to go back to class, Mr. Yoshikage, thank you for listening. I have to go back to class now."<< Mr. Yoshikage immediately stood up and opened the door for me with the words: >>"Let me accompany you, I'll take you to your class."<< He then takes me to class and went back to his room and I went into class.
I waited patiently until class was over and listened as best I could, feeling much more comfortable and better knowing I could change my class. I didn't even look at the two boys again, I never want to see them again.
the next break I spoke again with Mr. Yoshikage, he spoke to me and tried to build me up again, we talked until the next class and at the end of school he went with me again and took me out to Evelyn, Evelyns eyes narrow immediately. She is definitely not happy that Mr. Yoshikage bring me back to her, Evelyns voice got stern and serious: >>"Rin... Get in the car now. Please."<< I thanked her and got into Evelyn's car. As soon as I got in the car, I couldn't hear what they were talking about. I only saw Mr. Yoshikage grab Evelyn's shoulder hard and squeezed firmly and Evelyn's body tensed immediately and her body gives slightly up, Mr. Yoshikage smiled emotinolessly with serious eyes. Evelyn clenches her hands into fists, She could hardly bear it and when I saw that she was in pain and... and I feel something in my chest... I felt something tightening in my chest, as if I couldn't breathe properly. What is this feeling... It's... So intense, it feels somewhat uncomfortable I don't know... The situation was resolved when Mr. Yoshikage saw me and my gaze, he let go of Evelyn with a satisfied gaze. Evelyn held her shoulder and opened and closed her hand, Mr. Yoshikage left after saying something and Evelyn got in. Evelyn drove off immediately and was silent the whole time. I saw that she was pressing the steering wheel unusually hard and had a concentrated face and also tensed her jaw slightly.
Arriving home, Evelyn opened the door for me again. But I noticed that this time she opened the door with the other hand not with the same one as usual, What did Mr. Yoshikage do? What's wrong with her shoulder? I'm a little worried. We entered the living room together, but no matter which door, Evelyn used the wrong hand... >>"Evelyn? Is everything okay? Are you mad at me... I'm sorry... Please don't be mad... I didn't mean to, to disappoint you..."<< Evelyn turned to me and answers me a little gently and I heard her disappointment in her voice and it hurt me to see her like that, why do I feel that... >>"Rin... I know that you are angry with me, disappointed that I was not there when you needed me because I was at work and that you are now rebelling a little but please... I only want the best for you. Please don't trust him, Rin, trust me please. I know it seems bold and unfair but I know what I'm talking about."<< I looked at Evelyn and nodded silently. I felt bad and had the feeling that I was partly to blame for her being in this situation. I didn't want that and answered: >>"Evelyn... What's wrong with your shoulder... and why were you using the wrong hand? Normally, you always use the same hand, so why have you been using the wrong hand ever since Mr. Yoshikage?"<< Evelyn sighs: >>"I just have an old injury there that never fully healed, but it's okay, the pain's just back. I can't really grip or lift anything right now."<< I listened to her and was only worried about Evelyn. It's weird. I can't imagine being away from her anymore. She means so much to me now, and I don't understand. I don't understand these feelings. My chest tightens or I feel warm and anxious. I want to talk to her about it, but I don't dare. Why? She has never judged me for anything or anything like that. >>"Evelyn, can I help you in any way? I don't want you to be in pain, I don't want you to be in pain."<< Evelyn smiled a little touched by my caringness and nods briefly. >>"I promise you won't understand everything. But for now, everything will stay as it is, for your safety."<< I understand that Evelyn only wants to do the right thing, but she's just leaving me in the dark? Isn't that good, or is she waiting for the right moment? I understand that she doesn't want to make it harder for me. Suddenly Evelyn's phone rang as I was about to answer her. Evelyn kissed me on the forehead, saying: >>"I'll be right back, my little one."<< and then went into her room. I looked up at her with a slight smile and turned on the television. I saw the street we always drove down. Someone had been run over and killed? I tried to remember yesterday, Evelyn said she drove a animal dead and Kaito and Tokasan put it in the Car trunk. Should I check? I looked towards Evelyn's bedroom door and went to listen, I heard her talking about the Car trunk and hear the names from Kaito and Tokasan. I listened for another moment before I heard them putting the car back in the garage I immediately went to the garage, I wanted to know. I arrived at the garage and quietly opened the Car trunk luckily, Evelyn, Kaito, and Tokasan didn't lock the car inside the Garage. This allowed me to check without having to search for the car keys, when the garage is closed and locked, nobody can get to the car except us. I looked in the car trunk and saw... nothing? But... That can't be. I looked around more and actually found blood, but it could also be from an animal, but... according to the news... Did she actually drove someone over...? But - but why...? I sneak back into the living room after closing the Car trunk before Evelyn caught me in the Garage, she was still in a phone call and I try to listen on the door. I just heard a few new names, Shiraishi and Kaori? Who are these two? I sat back down in front of the television when she hung up. Evelyn came out, saw it, and immediately turned the TV off and said: >>"I'm sorry Rin, but I don't want that you see something like that. This would be very contra productive, you are still recovering"<< I listen and nod: >>"I'm sorry Evelyn, this was the first thing that came when I turned the TV on and it catched my attention"<< Evelyn sighed lightly and smiled gentle: >>"I understand that Rin, but I mean it just good for you."<< I nodded and accept it, she takes me to bed again. She waited until I fell asleep, but I waited until she left. After some time, believing I was asleep, she left and called someone else as she was leaving. I listened and heard it was Tokasan and Kaito again, the Topic was the girl who died. The girls name was Kurogami According to Evelyn, Shiraishi saw it. So there were witnesses after all.