hey :3 this is just stuff I gotta incorporate when I go back and edit. some of it needs to go into early chapters and I'm just staying focused on writing forward for the moment, so I figured I'd put them somewhere so ppl can know a few extra details I should've included originally (or thought of later lol)
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> This got cut from uhhhh CH31 for the sake of brevity, but I also realized it's the first fucking time Crimson even thinks of Hilde, Penny, and Zip since arriving in the Hells, so this one's gonna get dissected and pieced into V3
"Anyone with suggestions, speak them."
"The Spinal Shrine," someone calls out.
"How many times must I say it? Nobody touches Nyth."
"Saint Fildyrr's!"
"The Red Keep!"
"Lysander's Redoubt!"
I stop listening as they sort out which places to destroy. There's something in me saying that I should care but I don't. To me, in this moment, they're nothing but the names of locations on Avi, as if that's all they are. Nevermind the people who live there, the mortals who call these places home, the lives the Wretched Overgrowth will soon stomp out like the last embers of a dying fire. Means to an end. Means to an end.
To think I've become so cold.
Kayus. Raiden. Lucien. The Valorant.
Those monsters destroyed me.
I'll do anything to slaughter them.
But I find myself wondering…
What's Hilde doing right now, up there? Did she leave the Order? Is she searching Avi for me? Does she even care that I'm gone? I don't know. She seemed heartbroken too, there at the end. Maybe she does care about me more than I gave her credit for. And if that's the case, then maybe she is looking for me.
What about Zip? Hells, she's probably worried sick. She was always looking out for me since the day we met. Even though she didn't exactly know how. Just being beside me was enough, and she made sure to stay there as much as possible. But there was only so much she could do. I'm certain she's looking for me, in some way.
And Penny? I'm not entirely sure how she'd respond to all this. If she even remembers that it happened in the first place. But I think she would miss having her regular kisses and compliments enough to notice I'm gone. Whether she'd seek me out for it though… I don't know.
When the Avi targets are decided, I speak up the moment Umbra mentions our draconid targets. "Valorant Hildegard, Radiant Fable Zip, and Fable Penelope. They're off limits."
"Truly?" Visdeni questions, looking at me sideways. "Even though we're discussing Legends, I was about to suggest Valorant Hildegard as a potential target. She is an extremely dangerous adversary, even for a Fable, and is confirmed to be resistant towards renouncing her faith."
"No. No, no, no. Please. Please. Not Hilde."
Umbra takes hold of me. "My Rose said they are off limits. Hildegard will not be harmed. That is the end of it."
"Of course, my Queen," he nods, then falls quiet.
Agitation washes over me and I find myself unable to sit still, stuck imagining all the horrible ways these Wretched may accidentally or intentionally hurt or kill her. Is it enough to just say it? Is that all there is to it? Is she safe now? Or is she–
"Crimsy," Umbra whispers, kissing my ear. "Fret not. If they are important to you, nobody will touch them. Or else they will face my wrath."
"But–But–But will that–I mean, your wrath would only come after she's dead or–or what if something happens anyway? What if, by accident, someone does it or–"
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> I cut this part out of CH25's beginning but in hindsight I'm kinda like uummmmmm maybeeee O\\_\\O;;
Umbra and I are in her library sorting the truth from the lies.
At least, that's what we came here to do. However…
She has me in her hands, straddled on her lap, with her tongue down my throat. As if I'm at all innocent in this arrangement. I'm the one who started it. Kissing these giant lips just feels so fucking phenomenal, the absurd size of her hands just keeps tantalizing my desire, and the sheer overwhelming power with which she dominates me is nothing short of ecstatic. Between the leash, collar, and her size, my fate is sealed.
It's a fate I am glad to accept.
She more or less crushes the life out of me when she's on top, so we've determined that I should take that role unless certain urges demand otherwise. That is not to say I'm in control, not in the fucking least. She doesn't even have to touch me. One turn of her head and a single quiet whisper is all it takes, and I'm all hers.
Her appetite is even more insatiable than mine.
But I'm loving every damn minute of this.
"Sweet rose," she whispers between kisses, lips curled with a smile as she exhales a hot breath. "We've become somewhat distracted…"
I'm genuinely drooling. "More."
"Secrets of the Heavens, remember?"
I swallow her lingering saliva. "More."
"You wanted to know the truth, Crimsy. So?"
Holding her face, I bring her in. "More…"
"Ahh… Have it your way, sweet little thing."
Another hour later, I wave the white flag, no longer capable of taking it anymore. With a dry purr of amusement at my expense, she admires the sight of me flushed, exhausted, and pulverized, then starts licking my body clean.
Oh, damn it.
"One… One more…"
"Oh? Are you certain? Why the change of heart, hm?"
"It's that infernal fucking black tongue of yours."
"Yes, yes, I'm quite dextrous with it indeed…"
"That's a complete fucking understatement."
"I'll use a towel then, next time."
After another go of it, I am left at the brink of collapse. It takes another hour or so for me to recover and regain my faculties, but I'm finally ready to resume our damnable labor.
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> This was cut from CH30 bc it was uhhh impulsive on my part ;;u_u (thx for the feedback darcyi) also it's just kinda weak ass bullshit and it sucks so idk what I'm gonna do with it, if anything at all
And I will be… yours…"
"Mates, in full? You and I? We're going to be together?"
"If that pleases you," she whispers, lowering her legs to stand up in the water, holding me in her arms. "Yes… Please. Shall we be together, Crimsy? Genuinely."
"Yes!" I toss myself around her and squeeze, laughing from the heart. "Yes, Umbsy! Absolutely! I would love to be with you! Let's!"
"Ahh… Wonderful…"
She kisses me and I hold her face in my hands, both of our lips curled with blissful smiles as we share our quiet joy, snickering and gushing and giggling together like adolescents. There was no chance I could have seen this coming, but I had been hoping it would sometime soon. I'm happy. I'm so happy! I get to be true mates with her! I cannot wait to see where we go and what we do. Together. We'll be together for it all.
After she's had her fill tasting my mouth and throat, she exhales a warm sigh and hums with pleasure.