Noxan layed out on the ground,where even silence was to loud.
He tried to sleep wich was hard,he looked into emptiness asking himself.
*Is he really worth so much*
Noxan eventually fell asleep,when he woke up naturally he checked his phone with hope of him living.Noxan knew that last night was just a dream but it felt so real.
Agian, nobody texted him.He was annoyed but not angry.People always assume that when you are annoyed you're also angry but this was the quit type,it aksed to talked about,but nobody knew the words.
Noxan changed his messy folded clothes, each fold telling the samenight.
He arrived in school and the three classmates that were always first were already there, except Sylas, he wasn't present.
Noxan didn't think much of it at first but his eyes projected last night over and over again.
As the room filled Sylas was still missing.Noxan felt his heart secret rising of speed.
Noxan had no right to be concerned,but feelings don't lie,they are the reason why what we can't explain some things,they are the reason why some things aren't shown on our bodys, they are hiding for now.
As the lesson began,Sylas still hasn't arrived.
Noxan panicked in his head.
*Did he.. no... he wouldn't...*
As the lesson continued he looked at an empty chair multiply times,each look made him come closer to the edge.
Later in the brake ,the missing of the sun was noticeable.A smile that seemed so simple turned out to be something needed.
Noxan sat on a bench, shaking his legs.
*What if he actually...*
*Why am I so lonely without him,i usually don't even interact with him.*
*Do i need him so much?*
All these thoughts came at the same time, punching Noxan into yesterdays night.A moment existing just for him,to be broken just by him.
Noxan couldn't change his face expression like always,he was in public people can't know.It's not like I'm not used to it.
Noxan walked into the school toilet,not because he had to but because he needed distance.
Noxan let out tears he didn't know he hold.
They weren't much but they hold more then visible.
Noxan cried a lot, which he hated.He felt like Ocean that had to much water.
Later when class continued , every voice he heard by his classmates sounded like him.Noxan missed his voice so much,he wished that he could hear all the stories yet to be made,from him.
Not only that but also randoms voices formed by the wind whispered into his ear.
"Why didn't you save"
"I thought you loved me"
"I thought you'd be my everything"
"Why did you brake your promises"
"You should be a dog under my heart"