Amethyst's POV:
Cold water made me shiver. The sudden contact was shocking.
And yet for the first time, I was thankful that someone was throwing ice cold water on my body.
Iris was standing by my side. Her eyes didn't have any warmth as usual but I felt happy that it was her.
How strange life was! When in danger, we tend to choose the one less harmful. The back of my head was throbbing. I touched it and realized that it had swelled.
"Ahem, I had no other choice. You were under drugs." She was looking here and there, not letting her eyes rest on me even for once.
Guilt.
She was feeling guilty. I didn't know why, perhaps because she splashed water on me. I didn't want to interrogate her.
My wrist was burning. The red fingerprints were a proof of how harsh his grip was.
How easy it was for him.
"It's not your fault. He's a monster," she said.
"It's not my fault? I entered despite knowing he had bad intention."
"No, it's his fault for being such a hideous human who can't control his lust around his students. If anyone should be ashamed then it's him. If it hadn't been you then it could have been someone else. Would you blame someone for getting hurt? You had your own reasons, you were probably desperate to get your paper published and thought he could help, how would you know that he would cross all the lines in the school, a place where you are supposed to be safe. Don't blame yourself, curse him for being like this."
Her eyes were glossy. She looked away to hide it but I noticed. She was angry on my behalf.
She didn't blame me. She didn't say that it was my fault. The emotions, the fear I tried to hold out for so long finally found an exit.
"Thank you." My voice was shaky and tears were streaming non-stop from my eyes.
"Thank you. Thank you." And I broke into sobs. She didn't hug me to comfort me and I was thankful to her. I didn't want any physical contact at that moment.
"Thank you." And I cried more.
She sat beside me but kept a safe distance.
I don't know for how long I cried but she sat beside me.
Without saying anything.
Without interrupting me.
Or without feeling annoyed.
"Have some water," she passed me a bottle. I gulped down a few sips.
And then I realized something really important.
"How can I forget about it? I am so stupid!" I mentally cursed myself.
"Where's he?" I didn't have to say his name. I never have to.
Everyone seems to know that it's always about him.
"I don't know. I was late today so I decided to go to the teacher's room first but on my way, I heard some noise. It's coming from that darn snow's room. I decided to take a look as I had my own suspension and found you both there. You were unconscious. He told me to take you somewhere else and make you bathe in cold water. So, here we are."
We were in the room next to the girls washroom.
"The washroom was full so I had no other choice," she explained after seeing my confused face but I was confused about something else.
Where's he? Where are you, Evren? Please be safe.
"Thank you." She truly has helped me a lot.
"Mention not."
"Won't Stella be angry that you helped me? She hates me." She's Stella's twin after all.
"She would be more angry if I didn't help. She might hate you with every fiber of her body but she would never want you to be left alone in such situation," she said with a smile. It's almost non-existent but it's there.
She probably loves her twin a lot.
Another reason why I can't think badly of Stella. She's a bully with morals.
"Change your clothes or you'll catch cold."
"Hey, Iris. Thank you so much for everything. Can you do me another favor?"
"What is it?"
"Don't tell Vivian about this. She's already so worried about something. I don't want her to worry about me as well."
She simply nodded her head but she had a complicated look on her face, as if she wanted to add something more but didn't know how to bring that up.
I went back to attending my classes like it's nothing. He wasn't there.
I felt like everyone was looking at me.
"Do they know what happened? Where's Mr. Snow? Evren possibly can't kill him. He's probably hospitalized. Calm down, Amethyst." I told myself but I didn't feel calm.
"Hey!" My body jerked on its own.
"Does she know what happened? Will she judge me? Iris didn't but what if they don't believe me? " My blood was rushing to my face.
"Y-yes."
"Wow, a stuttering fool that won't stop shaking her legs. Just amazing. Stop doing this. It's annoying!" She doesn't know but until when? He's a professor. They'll know sooner or later.
I tried to keep my legs still. The teacher's voice was fading into the background. I could only focus on the doodle I have made on my paper.
"- and a criminal often feels anxious. They become more sensitive to everything around them." I looked up.
I wasn't a criminal then why am I behaving like this? What about my future? How'll I get the scholarship now?
Is this the end of my future? Should I run away? I could pick trash to make a living. I live alone anyways.
What should I do?
And for the first time, I felt alone in the midst of a ocean of people. My mind was screaming. The voices in my head were far stronger than the teacher's voice.
Somehow the first class ended and so did the second one. It's time for Mr. Snow's class.
I was having a hard time breathing. Why can't I get a rest?