KHANYISILE
You know I always used to say "When life serves you lemons, just make lemonade." I live by that saying, I did that a lot of time, but there are times that the lemonade still tastes sour as hell. I had to taste a lot of lemons during my previous marriage. I suffered a lot of emotional abuse, which led to me losing myself in the marriage, losing my self esteem and not knowing who I am. I was never able to take my own advice, advice that I would give to other people and it would work for them, but me, no I just had to be and tell myself all will be well in time, only I didn't realise I was drowning myself, killing myself and my kids, slowly digging our graves by believing that he'll change. 6 years I had to put up with it and endure it.
As I walk out of the gym, I notice someone standing next to my car, in fact he's leaning on my car. I hate it when people do that, it's disrespectful, he doesn't know me like that. I'm pissed off. "Calm down Khanyi, you don't have to shoot him." I say to myself. I press my keys to unlock the car hoping that he'll move and he does, he's also busy on a call and he opens the car parked next to mine and gets in but he lives the door slightly ajar and I'm thinking that this guy was just sent to test me. I'm inside my car and I want to pull out but I can't he's door is still open. I open the passenger side window to talk to him but he is still on the phone, so I honk my hooter and he looks at me and I just point to the door. He just smiles and closes his door and I drive off. You know this guy's car is exactly the same as my other car even the interior, I didn't look at the registration number now my mind is running wild, I make a call to Eddie:
Eddie: Lady K, are you ok?
Me: Eddie check if my Mustang is still there ( I know I'm being paranoid right now, but hey)
Eddie: it's here, I used it to take the kids to school, it was the car of the day that they chose. Why, what's going on?
Me: Someone at the gym has the same car, it's exactly like mine, even the interior, just everything.
Eddie: Oh I see. (and he laughs)
I drop the call as I'm almost home. I don't understand why he is laughing, he would have reacted the same way. As I drive in my mood changes from 80 to 0 as I see the other car parked in my driveway, definitely not someone I'm interested in seeing. Why was he allowed to come in. I need to speak to Eddie about this. I sit in my car and take a deep breath and brace myself for what I'm about to deal with right now. I really don't need drama right now. I can't see Eddie out here, maybe he's inside, I walk slowly towards the door, before I open I take another deep breath and walk in. Why do I feel like this, this is my house for crying out loud, I can kick him out, I don't have to deal with him and he interrupts my train of thoughts:
Him: Hi
Me: Mmmm
Him: How are you? I've been waiting for you
Me: I can see that, what do you want?
Him: I would like to see the kids
Me: Do you know what day it is today?
Him: Yes it's Tuesday
Me: Why would they be home at this time? I know you don't drink so whatever it is that you are smoking, stop it, it's making you confused. My son is at work and my daughter is a varsity student who stays at school. I don't understand why you would think they are home in the middle of the week. So why don't you tell me why you are really here, you know what don't bother. The kids will see you when they want to see you, it is their decision and you know this. Please leave. Eddie just came out of nowhere and he escorts him out.
As I walk up the stairs to my room " Baby daddy no scratch that, sperm donor drama early in the morning shit, I should just kill him." I mumble to myself