(Y/N) POV
A few days have passed since my dinner with Jaemin, and I haven't heard from him. No text, no call, and definitely no additional training. My fingers itch to send Jaemin a quick message, but I refuse to give in.
He was pretty upset when we ended our last session...
"Okay, that's the twelfth time I've heard you sigh like that. What's wrong?" Malorie asks.
"it's nothing! I'm just trying to figure Jaemin out. I've never met anyone who runs so hot and cold. It's driving me nuts!"
"Someday, I wanna meet this man of yours. I thought I was good at playing hard to get, but he's obviously the master..."
"You think he's messing with me on purpose?"
"Without a doubt. Look at you. He has you exactly where he wants you."
Jaemin is always saying that anticipation is half the fun of BDSM.
"I wish I could be as chill as you about all this. I'm afraid I'll never be good at casual sex."
"Do you need to be? It seems like Jaemin likes you just the way you are. Why change if you don't want to?"
I'm about to ask Malorie how long I'm supposed to wait before texting a guy, but Emerson appears before I can.
"Can't you two go one day without gossiping like schoolgirls?"
"What do you want Emerson?" I sigh with annoyance.
He pulls a file from under his arm and tries to hand it to Malorie.
"This is for you. I need you to cross-reference these policies with the grassroots strategy coming out of New York."
"Uh, that's a little outside my jurisdiction. I'm social media. Remember?" Malorie smiles sarcastically.
"You're an intern, which means I can make you do anything I want."
My phone buzzes, drawing my attention away from the conversation.
JAEMIN:
"Your next assignment is to go to this address I'm about to send to you. Immediately. You'll receive further instructions once you arrive."
There are so many questions I long to ask him, but I refuse to give in. Rules are rules, after all.
I'm Jaemin's sub-in-training and nothing more. That means I do as I'm told...and only what I'm told.
Fired up in more ways than one, I turn to Emerson and Malorie to interrupt.
"Emerson, Do your own damn work for once. You only want her help so you can take all the credit for it."
Emerson opens his mouth and closes it again, too confused to respond.
"What's wrong? No comeback this time? Maybe you'll think of one by the time we return from lunch."
I gather up my things without another word, and Malorie follows suit.
"Hey, wait! I'm timing you both. If you aren't back here in exactly one hour..."
"Then you can take it up with my supervisor. Buh-bye!"
"What was that? One minute, you're pining after Jaemin, and the next, you're destroying Emerson's ass. Did someone spike your coffee?"
"Jaemin texted me. You know how he's been giving me lessons? He told me to go to some mystery address before the next one... Will you come with me?"
"You don't have to ask me twice. With any luck, it's a dungeon full of doms looking for a gorgeous social media maven for them to whip into shape."
The address is closer to the office than I expected. Just a few minutes later, I spot a small, discreet shop tucked down an alleyway.
"Wait, this can't be right..."
But deep down, I know it is. Whips dangle from the ceiling, mannequins are displayed in submissive poses, and there's leather everywhere.
"Five thousand dollars? This swing costs more than my car! There's no way Jaemin makes that much from divorces. Does he come from money or something?"
"Maybe? It's not something we talk about. We're usually busy doing...other things."
Malorie mimes fanning herself before turning back to the displays. I pull out my phone and send Jaemin a quick text.
(Y/N):
"I did what you asked. Now what?"
JAEMIN:
"When was the last time you bought yourself a shiny new toy?"
(Y/N):
"Um...never? I've never really...used toys?"
JAEMIN:
"My poor baby. You deserve something nice...or naughty. Pick something that intrigues you. You'll need it for tonight's lesson."
(Y/N):
"But this place is so expensive!"
JAEMIN:
"I've already made the arrangements. Get whatever you want. That's an order."
"Hello, you must be Ms. (YF/LN). Mr. Na's orders are to help you get whatever you want. Where would you like to start?"
"Uh, Jaemin wants me to pick something naughty. I'm supposed to pick out something for our lesson tonight... The more turned on it makes me, the better."
"That's it, I'm finding myself a rich Dom."
"But...how am I supposed to know what feels good if I haven't tried any of this stuff before?"
"You've never tried any of it? Then there's only one right answer. Besides, it's a surefire way to make yourself feel good."
Malorie and the sales woman share a knowing glance.
"I agree. This is a situation that calls for something simple but very effective." the saleswomen states.
The saleswoman walks to the next aisle and returns a few moments later. She hands me a vibrator.
"If you're just starting out, this is the perfect introduction. Small but mighty, and a lot of fun for everyone involved."
I switch it on, and the vibrator buzzes with a pleasant hum, tingling every part of my hand. I flush...
"I'll take it. Well, Jaemin will."
Malorie and I stand chatting while the saleswoman rings up the purchase. I glance behind her and notice another toy on display...
"What's that?"
"The spreader? That's my favorite when I'm feeling more...adventurous than usual. You don't know agony until you've tried one of those."
"Agony? Does it hurt?"
"Not like that. Those cuffs go around your ankles, and the bar holds your legs in place. There's definitely no cuming without permission. There's a lot of positions too. You can sit, kneel...bend over with your whole body on display. I've never known a dom who can resist that one." the saleswoman explains.
Just picturing Jaemin using the spreader bar on me is hot. The spreader and the vibrator would be...beyond my wildest imagination.
"Okay, you talked me into it. You can add the spreader bar to my purchase."
My whole body feels like it's on fire, but I don't back down as the saleswoman scans the spreader bar too.
"Damn, I'm impressed. You went from baby's first vibrator to hardcore bondage real fast." Malorie laughs.
"When I do something, I go all in."
The saleswoman puts the vibrator and spreader bar in a discreet package and hands it to me with a knowing smile.
"Enjoy."
Malorie and I head toward the door. I feel feverish but exhilarated at the prospect of my evening ahead.
As the hours pass, Jaemin doesn't send me any more messages or instructions for tonight's lesson. My purchase sits at the end of the bed, taunting me. I pace in my underwear and collar, trying not to appear as nervous as I feel.
"I don't know how much more of this I can take! Would it kill the man to give me a tiny clue about what to expect?"
The sound of the front door clicking open causes my heart to leap in my chest.
Finally. I should get into position.
I waste no time falling to my knees in front of the bed. As soon as I ready myself, I start to feel a tingle of excitement taking over.
Jaemin will have nothing to complain about now.
He enters the dungeon and barely notices me kneeling in preparation for him.
"Sorry I'm late. My meeting ran long."
"I hope it wasn't Jay again..."
"Not everything I do is about you, (Y/N)."
I blink, confused at Jaemin's aloofness. After giving me carte blanche to buy whatever I wanted from the sex shop, I expected him to be more excited about tonight's lesson...
"Is something wrong?"
"Nothing that concerns you."
"But—"
"I mean it, (Y/N). I don't need you to ask about my feelings. Your only job is to obey."
There's no time for me to wonder at this change in Jaemin's mood as he issues his next order.
"Bring me your new toy and get back in position."
As I start to move, I hear his voice soften.
"But you did good, being in a ready position for me."
My hands shake as I pull out the two toys I bought. I place them in front of Jaemin before kneeling at his feet. My nerves don't settle as Jaemin picks up the vibrator and examines it. Even in this mood, he looks so tempting holding it in his hands...
"Sleek and simple. An interesting choice...I can do a lot with this."
He picks up the spreader bar with a low chuckle.
"But not nearly as much as I can do with this."
He neatly clasps and unclasps the cuffs, his fingers dexterous as he adjust the toy to his preferred settings. I gulp, unable to tear my gaze away.
"I don't remember telling you to get more than one toy."
"You said I could get anything..."
Jaemin takes a deliberate step toward me. Using one end of the spreader bar, he tilts my head up to meet his gaze.
"Greedy subs deserve to be punished, don't you think?"
"I..."
With a deft twirl of the bar, he extends it lengthwise against my throat. The press of the cold, hard metal makes my head spin.
"In fact, greedy subs should apologize to their doms..."
"I'm sorry, Jaemin."
I try to swallow around the bar, but he holds it so firm that I can only gasp.
"I only wanted to surprised you..."
As he relaxes his grip, the look on his face softens to amusement.
"Don't worry. I'll punish you by putting this to very good use."
Jaemin steps back, taking the bar with him.
"Kneel on the bed. It's time to show you just what kind of danger you've unleashed."
I comply as quickly as I can, but it's difficult when every part of my body is trembling with anticipation. I watch as Jaemin turns the vibrator to the first setting. The low, buzzing hum fills the dungeon.
"Toys like this might look simple, but they're a big part of BDSM play."
He approaches the bed from behind, just out of my line of sight. The buzzing sound grows louder.
I comply as quickly as I can, but it's difficult when every part of my body is trembling with anticipation. I watch as Jaemin turns the vibrator to the first setting. The low, buzzing hum fills the dungeon.
"Toys like this might look simple, but they're a big part of BDSM play."
He approaches the bed from behind, just out of my line of sight. The buzzing sound grows louder.
"The bondage part of things secures you in place and forces you to show yourself to me. The toys, however..."
He touches the vibrator to my upper arm. I gasp at the sudden surprise of it, at how such an innocent part of my body could feel so wicked.
"They're designed to enhance your pleasure. To turn every part of your body into my plaything. See what I mean?"
With a gentle rolling movement, he draws the vibrator up my arm to the curve of my neck.
"Ohhhh..."
"There are so many different parts of your body to tease..."
Then, the vibrator slides down my neck and toward the upper swell of my breasts. He draws the tip of it down to my nipple, holding it there.
"Jaemin!"
My head starts to buzz at the same frequency as the vibrator. Just when I think I might be able to cum on that sensation alone, he moves the vibrator lower. He slides it along the side of my body, down to the wide splay of my thighs. I had no idea I could be so turned on by a few tiny vibrations...
"Oh yes. Yes, please."
But then Jaemin pulls back complete, turning the toy off.
"Wait, where are you going?"
He twirls the vibrator around so the handle points at me.
"Since you've never had a chance to use one of these before, I want you to explore what's possible."
"While you...watch? Yes, Jaemin. Whatever you say."
I hold my hand out for the vibrator, and he smiles as he hands it to me.
"Good girl. But first, it's time we put your other toy to good use. On your back, and spready wide. I want to see every part of you."
I can't speak as Jaemin grabs the spreader bar. I can barely believe my own audacity as I follow orders.
I can't second-guess myself now, (Y/N).
Jaemin slides the first leather band around my ankle. The fit is tight and the leather is cool to the touch.
"Once the bar is in place there's no escape."
He waits until I nod before continuing. As the second leather band is clasped into place, I realize what he means. As soon as I'm in position, he steps back and crosses his arms.
"Well, (Y/N)? Is this what you wanted?"
I whimper and nod, unable to trust my voice. At the point, I've never wanted anything more...
"The first thing I want you to do is use the vibrator to open your body. Don't enter yourself. Just tease your entrance for me."
I have no idea how I find the strength to do as he asks. As he stands there, his dark eyes devouring me, I bring the vibrator between my legs and touch the tip to my center.
"Oh my God!"
"How does it feel?"
"It feels amazing. I had no idea it was possible to feel so much...sensation."
"If you turn it up to the next setting, you'll feel even more."
Emboldened by his calm command, I turn the vibrator up a level. The sudden, intense throbbing causes me to cry out. I long to drive the vibrator deeper, to feel that pulsing sensation from the inside, but I wait for Jaemin's command.
"Poor thing... I can see how much you want it."
With my legs open and my whole body on display, I know he can see how wet I am, how much my hips buck and plead.
"Yes, Jaemin. I want it so bad..."
"I'll let you enter yourself, but only if you tell me exactly how it feels while you do it."
"Please... I'll do anything you want."
The air shifts as Jaemin steps forward, his powerful presence drawing closer to the bed.
"Go ahead. You have my permission."
I'm a little hesitant, but the moment the toy slides into my body, I give myself over to the sensation.
"It feels...amazing. Every part of me is tingling, even on the inside... I've never— Oh God. I can't..."
"I didn't say you could cum, (Y/N). When you feel yourself getting close, pull it back out again."
The vibrations cause such powerful waves to clench inside me that I have no choice but to remove the vibrator as quickly as possible.
"Now I want you to tease yourself a little. Circle your entrance. Find where it feels the best."
I brace myself and draw the vibrator up the line of my core, my body clenching in anticipation. I find my pleasure point, and that tiny spark sets off an explosion I'm powerless to stop.
"it's too much! I can't—"
"You want to cum for me?"
I feel empty and desperate for more...until I notice the dark, hungry look in Jaemin's eyes. As good as the vibrator feels, there's only one way to want this lesson to end.
"Jaemin, I..."
"What is it? What do you want?"
I whimper as I try to muster up the courage to ask for what I really want...for Jaemin to finish this lesson for me.
"Please, Jaemin...I want you to take over. Show me how good it can be."
He sucks in a sharp breath but doesn't move, not even to blink. He stands staring as resolute as a statue. I'm afraid I've pushed too hard, but there's no backing down now.
"You know the rules, (Y/N)..."
"I know...but I can't do this without you."
I can see him wavering. He wants this as much as I do... I extend the vibrator to him. Rocking my hips gently back and forth, I let him see just how badly I want it.
"...Please?"
With a low growl, Jaemin takes the vibrator and approaches the bed. There's so much powerful energy to him...
"You're a manipulative little brat, you know that?"
He's actually doing it. He's crossing the line with me...
My body clenches as I lower my gaze. There's too much fire in his eyes right now. I don't trust myself to look up.
"Yes, Jaemin."
"Do you know what I do to manipulative little brats?"
"No, Jaemin."
With a deliberation that sets my heart racing, Jaemin begins rolling up his sleeves.
"You're about to find out. Do you remember your safe word?"
"Apples."
"Good. Now, up against the headboard, (Y/N). I'm tying you down for this."
I lose no time in scooting up the bed until my back is nestled against the headboard. With the spreader holding my legs in place in front of me, my whole body is at Jaemin's mercy. He pulls out a pair of silk bonds. I gulp as he starts to tie the first one to the headboard.
"Give me your wrist."
I extend my hand toward him. A thrill works through me as he deftly ties the silk in place and binds me to the ring.
"Good. Now the other one."
He ties my second hand to the other side before standing back to examine his handiwork. His expression gives nothing away.
"What I should do is leave you here to think over the consequences of your actions."
"What? No! Please, Jaemin, I wouldn't be able to stand it."
He smiles gently down at me. Lifting the vibrator, he runs it slowly down the side of my neck, not stopping until it's resting between the swell of my breasts.
"I know you wouldn't. That's what makes it so fun...'
Jaemin makes sure the vibrator is on the lowest setting before gliding it down my body toward the open splay of my legs. The closer he gets to my center, the more I buck and plead, but he doesn't touch it to my core.
"A toy like this has so many uses. I can use it to tease..."
As he speaks, he runs it lightly up and down my slit.
"Oh yesss..."
"You can use it to explore."
This time, he draws the vibrator so far down that it nudges my ass, just enough to make his intention clear.
"Oh God. I don't think I can take it."
"Or, you can use it to drive deep."
Before I realize what's happening, Jaemin plunges it into me.
"Jaemin!"
He slides it out as quickly as it entered me. I'm left panting and empty, as if I imagined the whole thing...except for my body's quivering. Jaemin eyes the spreader bar with delicious satisfaction.
"I've changed my mind. I like your new toy. You, on the other hand, may come to regret your choice. There's no more dangerous combination for a dom like me. I long to clamp your thighs shut and close myself off from his view, but I have no choice. I'm Jaemin's to command...and dominate."
"What're you going to do to me?"
"Whatever I want...and what I want is to make this last."
I whimper as Jaemin draws up to the bed once again. He's careful not to touch me any more than is necessary, but I can feel the heat of him as he brings the vibrator close.
"Your mistake, little lamb, was picking a vibrator with this many power settings."
I don't have time to ask what that means. Jaemin slides the vibrator inside the tight hot core of my body. With a flick of his thumb, he drives it up to the next level.
"Oh God. you can't do that."
"On the contrary, I can do whatever I want..."
Without moving the vibrator any deeper inside my body, he increases the power even more. I cry out, unable to do anything but give myself over to the deep, thrumming sensation.
"Had enough yet?"
"I can take anything you throw at me."
Even though my whole body feels rattled with need, I undulate my hips and beckon him to drive deeper.
"I'm not afraid of you."
"We'll see about that..."
Jaemin flips the switch to the highest setting. The overwhelming burst of sensation almost makes me scream. I can feel the tight coil of release beckoning on the horizon. All I need is one touch to set me off, but instead of ending my agonies, Jaemin releases a low tsk.
"Oh no, you don't. I'm not making it that easy on you."
"But I'm so close."
"But I'm not done with you yet."
Too late, I remember the scene from the movie we watched together, when the domme brought her sub to the edge only to let off again and again.
"You wouldn't do that to me..."
"I already am."
I gasp as he slides the vibrator inside me again, this time so slowly that I can feel each agonizing inch. Driving my hips up, I try to speed up the process, but he refuses to be hurried.
"I'm in charge, (Y/N). I want to hear you say it."
"Yes, yes! You're in charge..."
He rewards me by angling the vibrator just so, giving me a sweet moment of release...only to pull back just as I can feel my body peaking.
"You belong entirely to me. Say it."
"I'm all yours, Jaemin. You're my dom. Only you command me."
Jaemin releases a low growl of approval. Instead of filling me with the vibrator as a reward, he touches it gently to the outside of my center. I jerk reflexively at the sudden, overwhelming sensation.
"That's right. Your body yields only me."
I no longer notice or care that my legs are splayed wide and helpless, or that I'm panting for Jaemin's touch. Just when I can't handle one more moment, he drops his mouth to my ear. His hot breath sends shivers down my spine...and right to my core.
"Say my name or I won't let you cum. That's an order."
I tip my head back and give myself over to the sensation of belonging entirely to this man.
"...Jaemin!"
He rotates the vibrator in a slow, expert circle along the inside of my body. There's no teasing this time, just delicious pressure that sends my senses reeling.
"That's right, you can cum for me now."
With a strangled cry that seems to come from deep within me, I give myself over to the pull of an orgasm unlike anything I've experienced before. It starts in my center and swirls outward from there, wave after wave of pleasure so intense that I can feel my body contracting from the inside.
"Oh my God. Jaemin, it's not stopping... I can't..."
"Ride it out, (Y/N). Enjoy it..."
A gasp escapes me as Jaemin slowly removes the vibrator and switches it off. I feel exhausted, but oh-so satisfied. He swiftly unties my hands from where they're bound, rubbing my wrists.
"Feeling okay?"
I nod and do my best not to look as flustered as I feel. Jaemin begins unclipping the restraints from around my ankles.
"I'm going to massage your legs a little to get the blood flowing again."
I nod and try not to whimper as he works his fingers up and down my calves... It's a feeling I could get used to.
"You did very well, (Y/N)."
"Thanks. I've never had an orgasm like that before..."
As my breathing relaxes and my body comes down from what is undoubtedly the most powerful climax of my life, I risk a peek at Jaemin. His breathing is labored and his eyes glazed, the hard strain of his desire visible from here.
"Should I...?"
I gesture toward his body with a lick of my lips. The idea of tasting this man is almost enough to set me off again...but Jaemin steps back out of reach.
"No. You know the rules."
I gulp, unsure after what just happened... Jaemin softens a little, but not enough for me to risk pushing harder.
"You've been a good student, (Y/N). After a performance like that, you deserve a reward. I'll get back to you in a few days with the details. In the meantime, keep...practicing."
As his gaze falls onto the vibrator while he speaks, I feel myself starting to grow hot all over. Before I can ask him anything, he turns on his feel and makes for the door. He doesn't even glance back as he steps briskly out.
I'm starting to think I'll never understand what's going on inside the man's head...
I'm not surprised when I don't hear from Jaemin for several days... But I still feel a glimmer of hope every time my phone buzzes. By Saturday night, I've all but given up...
He's not my boyfriend or even my friend. He's just my...teacher. The sooner I get that through my head, the better.
Just when I'm about to 'practice' like instructed, I hear a knock at the front door.
"Jaemin?"
"Ah, sorry to disappoint, Ms. Park."
"Anderson? What're you doing here?"
"Mr. Na sent me. I have strict orders to drive you to a special party tonight on Mr. Na's private yacht. He said something about you earning a reward?"
Jaemin didn't forget about me after all... And a 'special party' sounds like the perfect setting for my next lesson.
"I just need a few minutes to get ready."
"About that..."
Anderson presents me with a white dress box. Inside, I find a sex, revealing gown.
"This is for me?"
"You must've really pleased Mr. Na for him to pull out all the stops like this."
I'm sure Jaemin will be just as dressed up. And a good sub always does what her dom asks.
I lose no time in rushing to my bedroom and slipping the gown on. It fits perfectly, every drape and tuck designed to show off my curves.
"One thing's for sure...Jaemin knows my body better than I do."
As soon as I'm dressed, I touch up my hair and makeup, careful not to overlook any aspect of my appearance.
If he wants an obedient little sub, that's exactly what he'll get.
With a deep, resolute breath, I give myself one last look in the mirror.
"Jaemin said this party is my reward, and I plan to enjoy it."
Squaring my shoulders, I prepare to head out...and into my dom's domain.