she was trying to cover her chest and down there with her both hand like her life depends on it. Carmine know what exactly she's trying to hide. she's not embarassed of beign held she's terrified becase something horrible have happened before.
she shaking desparetly making hiss worry grow wider and at the same time he felt like goddamn idiot for letting his feeling go over his head ,he pulled his hair with his hands frustation seeping through his whole body.he wanted to scream, not to her but to himself
he wanted to leave the room but at the same time worry came 'what if she harm herself or worse' insted of leaving he crouch on the floor in the farthest corner in the room not invading her space but close enough reach out if needed
he stare at her patiently until she calmdown.he looked at the way her small fragile body shake.too innocent for this kind of violence he want destriy everyone who make her feel this scared, wanted to see those jerks asking for mercy while he tear them apart completely.
After a while she calm down but her hands still kept around her self,still shaking but not the way it started.he still stare at her not sure whether to approach or not.
Leila slowly lift her head turning toward where Carmine was, she looked at him for his wounded expression almost swelling her heart with adoration and guilt at the same time
she know he didn't mean any harm buy hugging her but the trauma she carried for two decades got complete power over her body. she wantwd to run to him and crawl on to his lap in his warmth, but she know she isn't ready for that,'what if I messed up and repeat what happened in the morning' that what if held her she was
A while after Carminr got confirm that Leila has calmdown completely,he got up from where he was and walk straight to the door,shutting door softly not to scare her again.
he straightly went to his study room and shut the door harshly, the picture on the wall almost fell from the force,he lean against the door panting heavily, while his eyes welled up with tears
this wasn't part of his plan he doesn't wanted to scare her like that, All he wanted was is to keep the girl he fell in love , next to him.the rage he try to manage over power him resulting him punching the wall next to him.at the sudden brust a small whimper slip out through his mouth making him go numb,he lean on to the wall he hit then slowly his body lower to the ground with a loud thud.
he stay there for a while until he felt like he's ready to go out,when he went out of the room he didn't approach Leila's room.He straightly went to the kitchen and saw that the food tray for Leila was already made, as he try to take it to his hand he felt his hands are shaking, he felt like he isn't ready to face her,so he simply instruct to one of the maid to take it to her room.
On the other side of the mansion Leila was still on the bed thinking of what have had happened.she didn't mean to push him away but the fear did it it's own.
she remember the way he stare at her with a painfull expression,that was the first time she ever saw someone being vulnerable infront of her
her thoughts were interupt buy the door clicking he expected to see Carmine walk in but to her surprise it was just a maid walk in with her tray,Maid to her before she place the tray as she was instructed by Carmine then walk out leaving Leila to her thought again.
Leila felt uncomfortable first time since she came here that someone other than Carmine enter the room.she ate in complete silence not affectionate stare for the first time since she came.
for the next few weeks this happened continuosly Carmine ignore Leila completly.he just doesn't know how to approach again.he thought she's disgusted by him . thought may be she'll snap or worse may be harm herself out of disgust.so, he step away completly.he still check on her through camera's but couldn't take himself into her room.He saw how she had nightmares in middle of the night , had panic attacks when she heard heavy foots step outside the door, how she flinched when maid cosed the door bit loudly. He saw all this sometimes he send a maid to check on her but he hasn't shown his face to her in weeks.
On the other side Leila felt terrible she didn't know what's acually happening.Carmine hasn't showed up in her room in weeks .she thought he must be disgusted by her for pushing him away that day.he saw his eyes, the hurt in those eyes were real she wasn't sure if she love him,yet,but she knew she's falling for him after waiting for almost three weeks she couldn't bear it any long anymore ahe decide do something she shouldn't do at all.With determination full in her chest,she got up from the bed knowing what she's about to do is definitely going to get her in trouble.