Jay's POV..
London felt colder than I imagined.
Not because of the weather.
Not because of the grey skies or the unfamiliar streets or the people rushing past me without care.
It felt cold because for the first time in my life…
I was here without him beside me.
The entire flight felt suffocating. I barely remember anything except staring blankly outside the window while my mind replayed the same words again and again.
He was shot.
Every single time I heard those words inside my head, my chest hurt all over again.
I still couldn't believe it.
I refused to.
Because this was Keifer.
My Keifer.
The same person who always looked untouchable no matter what situation he was in. The same person who walked around like nothing in this world could bring him down.
And now everybody looked at me like they were already preparing me for the worst.
I hated the silence.
I hated the pity in their eyes.
I hated London.
The moment we reached the hospital, I felt my legs weaken slightly.
The building looked too big.
Hospitals always scared me.
But today?
Today it felt worse.
Aries walked ahead with Angelo while I stayed slightly behind them, my fingers trembling uncontrollably beside me.percy and Aries insisted on coming and Kuya was not ready to leave us alone..
I kept waiting for someone to tell me this was all one huge misunderstanding.
That Keifer was fine.
That he would walk toward me with that annoying smirk and say...
"Missed me already, Jay jay?"
But nothing happened.
Nobody smiled.
Nobody joked.
Even Percy looked exhausted as he leaned silently against the wall near the entrance, his eyes slightly red like he hadn't slept properly in days.
That scared me more than anything.
Because Percy never looked broken.
Ever.
The moment he saw me, he straightened slightly before walking toward me quietly.
Normally he would have said something stupid to lighten the mood.
Something irritating.
Something dramatic.
But today…
He just looked at me silently before pulling me into a tight hug.
And that alone nearly shattered me.
"Percy…" My voice cracked immediately. "Tell me he's okay."
I felt his grip tighten slightly.
But he didn't answer.
That silence felt louder than any words.
I slowly pulled away from him, panic rising inside me again.
"Why is nobody answering me?" I whispered weakly.
Still nothing.
Aries looked away.
Angelo rubbed his forehead tiredly.
And suddenly I felt angry.
So angry.
"You all are keep looking at me like he's already gone!" I cried out, tears burning my eyes instantly. "Stop doing that!"
"Jay…" Angelo finally spoke softly but firm. "Calm down first."
"How can I calm down?!" I snapped immediately. "Nobody is telling me anything!"
I looked around desperately before speaking again.
"I want to see him."
"No," Aries answered quickly.
I stared at him in disbelief.
"No?"
"He just got out of surgery," Aries explained carefully. "The doctors sai...."
"I don't care what they said!" I shouted. "I came all the way here and you're telling me I can't see him?!"
People around us started staring, but I couldn't care less anymore.
My heart was beating too fast.
My thoughts were getting worse every second.
What if he was in pain?
What if he woke up asking for me?
What if...
No.
No.
I couldn't think like that.
I clenched my trembling hands tightly before looking directly at Angelo.
"Please."
That one word came out so broken that even I hated hearing it.
Angelo closed his eyes briefly before finally nodding slowly.
And suddenly…
I was terrified.
Because if they were hesitating this much...
Then how bad was it?
The walk toward his room felt endless.
Every step made my chest tighten more painfully.
And the closer I got...
The more memories started flooding my mind.
Keifer laughing while teasing me for getting jealous.
Keifer kissing me just because I used profanity again.
How i puched him in the P.E class...
Keifer looking at me like i was his entire world.
Keifer promising me...
"Nothing's gonna happen to me."
A painful sob almost escaped my throat.
Liar.
The moment Angelo opened the door slightly, I froze completely.
I couldn't move.
Couldn't breathe.
Couldn't think.
Because the person lying there…
Didn't look like my Keifer anymore.
Machines surrounded him.
Bandages wrapped around his body.
His face looked pale.
Too pale.
And for the first time since I met him...
He looked weak.
No smirk.
No teasing.
No warmth.
Just silence.
My vision blurred instantly.
"No…" I whispered unconsciously.
I slowly walked closer to him like I was scared he would disappear if I moved too fast.
And when I finally stood beside him..
I broke.
A tear slipped down my face before another followed immediately after.
This couldn't be real.
It just couldn't.
Keifer was supposed to annoy me forever.
He was supposed to argue with me, tease me, kiss me whenever I cursed, hold my hand like he never wanted to let go.
He wasn't supposed to look like this.
I carefully touched his hand, and the coldness of it made my chest ache painfully.
"Keifer…" My voice trembled badly. "Wake up…"
Nothing.
I swallowed hard before forcing out another whisper.
"I'm here now."
Still nothing.
And somehow that hurt even more.
Because Keifer always answered me.
Always.
Another sob escaped my lips as tears kept falling uncontrollably now.
I lowered my head slowly beside his hand, holding it tightly like letting go would somehow make this worse.
"I told you not to go to London…" I cried softly. "You still left…"
The room stayed painfully silent except for the sound of my uneven breathing.
And for the first time since all this started...
I wished desperately…
That this was all just a horrible dream..
But unfortunately this wasn't my dream...it's reality .