Chapter 3 - Curious Changes

I go through so much and have a lot but I've got nothing to show for it all. Don't get me wrong. I have good grades, and a ton of friends. I am on all the sports teams offered at my school and in my state. If I graduate on time, which I will. I will have a full paid scholarship to any college of my choosing. Since I have applied to all of them and was accepted already. Which would be great news for anyone. Except I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I love all my subjects in school and they are all fairly easy. Apart of me wants to follow in my parents footsteps and another part of me says I need to follow my own heart. To make my own path. I am seriously worried because I don't know what to do. I haven't had to try ever when it came to school and sports. Naturally gifted I suppose. So honestly I don't even know what I should be doing. I have no major planned out. No plans for college let alone after college. I seriously don't know how to choose. Perhaps I'll figure it out by the time I graduate. I hope... To make things worse. My body is changing and I don't even know how to explain it. When I say change, I don't mean growth spurt kind of changes either. Some are very subtle others are well extreme. The subtle ones are barely noticeable ones. I only notice because it's my body and I pay close attention to it. There's also some weirdness about me as well. I mean it's not everyday you wake up floating above your bed. I mean that's not normal to me. That's just the beginning. My eyes have changed color, now I don't mean light to dark color either. It had changed to completely different colors all together. Sometimes it can go from sky blue to red or black with gold in the center There are times where I look like I have glowing cat eyes. There are even times when I have no whites in my eyes at all. My nails grow super fast. When I say super fast, I seriously mean super fast. I cut my nails completely down in the morning. Then by bedtime it's long again. My nails and my hair changes colors on their own as well. My hair has gotten me into trouble. In this home, we aren't allowed to dye our hair. It changes slowly on its own all the time. Then there are these times where it changes drastically on its own. My natural hair is light brown with sun dyed streaks. I use a lemon lime mixture to help promote natural highlights. Before heading to bed I was reading a magazine and saw this beautiful hair color. When I got up this morning my hair color matched the picture from the magazine. I even get these dreams. They are like mini movies and pictures of places. Like memories of places I have never been or been to but don't remember. Some of these are so exotic. Like I have traveled to another universe but don't remember the facts. Only these images. Maybe I have traveled across the world to Japan or England maybe. Only I was too young so it would seem as if it's just a dream. Maybe I was abducted by aliens and they tried to erase my memories. Only they didn't do a good job because I'm starting to remember. So many maybe scenarios. Perhaps I just watched way to many sci-fi movies or read to many fiction books. My imagination could be running wild and could be insane. who knows really? People that are insane, don't actually believe they are insane. So maybe I'm one of those people. I highly doubt it most times but lately I just don't know. My therapist is always saying my imagination is out of this world. There are some things I know is not my imagination and others, well... hmmm. I just don't know which is which anymore. Long story short. I believe I'm either a really great writer in the making or I'm a total and complete psycho. Or I am both, who knows? Only time will tell I guess. which got me thinking... Way back when I was just a little one. Not that I'm much older now. I can't remember too far back but I do know the basics. Back when everything that shimmered and glittered was a must-have.