I started to feel dizzy.
Saki undressed with renewed joy.
The girl was in front of me.
Saki, already naked, held her hands while looking at me expectantly.
I didn't feel good.
Saki's beautiful body filled me with fear.
> Was this the same body I marked with my semen last night?
Why did it seem different?
> Was I always this much of a coward?
Maybe yes.
Maybe, until now, I was on autopilot.
Without trying to think.
Without trying to feel.
I thought Saki was an NPC.
Or just a character from a doujin.
But everything was real.
Nothing happened like in the doujin.
Saki was supposed to be different.
In the manga, she never behaved like this with those guys.
> Was it because I was the one who took her first?
Because this world is real?
Here, there are no scripts.
No programming.
The office worker.
The woman in the trench coat.
The convenience store girl.
They all deceived me.
Nothing is the same.
Saki approached with Mana.
She gave me a look of "what now?"
"Should I undress her? Or should we tie her up? How do you want to try her out?"
Seeing her say this to me, with that smile on her face… shocked me.
> Did I… hurt Saki?
Would she be better off not having met me?
Or would she fall the same way as in the original work?
If there was no script.
No programming…
I didn't know anymore.
---
Saki started to undress the girl.
I didn't ask her to.
She thought that this way, it would be easier for me to fuck her.
Those were Saki's exact words.
> How much time has passed since I met her?
Two days?
How much can a person change in two days?
Maybe Saki had more hidden darkness.
Beneath that layer of innocence and tenderness.
Or… maybe I infected her.
Since Saki started acting like this, I've started to think more.
> Why?
It was supposed to be a world where all you had to do was fuck.
Take girls.
Achieve feats.
> Why did I have to start thinking again?
Saki held the naked girl on the bed.
We were in her room.
Again… she decided this.
I didn't know what to do.
> Should I undress too?
Saki's gaze seemed to urge me.
Press me to do or fulfill what she had said.
At least, that's what I perceived.
Fuuu...
With a sigh, I just approached.
I was supposed to rape this girl.
Take her by force.
Mark my dominance over her… and over Saki.
But… I no longer felt capable.
I tried to put on an appropriate face.
A fierce one.
My hands started to explore her body.
I caressed her thighs and opened her legs.
I expected resistance.
To see fear or disgust in her eyes.
But the expectant gaze…
and the ease with which she opened her legs…
made a knot in my stomach.
---
Taking a deep breath, I calmed down.
Seeing this girl and Saki naked in bed didn't excite me much.
I didn't understand why, but my friend down there didn't want to come out and play.
This had never happened before.
It was ironic. Pathetic.
Saki was still looking at me. The girl was waiting.
I couldn't just say, "Excuse me, I'm not in the mood today," or "I have a headache."
I clicked my tongue.
Something occurred to me.
Haven't I received a useful ability?
Without hesitation, I knelt on the bed and took the girl's thighs against my face.
I decided to start with a lick.
According to the description, the ability gave me a longer and more skilled tongue.
It seemed it wasn't lying.
The girl started to moan with each movement.
Although the taste and sensation sent waves of pleasure to my brain,
my body still didn't react.
Soon, she squeezed her thighs and my head.
Liquid wet my face.
She was breathing fast, agitated.
Her body glistened with sweat.
Saki watched while holding her.
Her lips murmured:
"He also licked me the first time."
I didn't understand if she was trying to tell the girl or repeating it to herself.
But the way she tightened her grip on her… scared me.
I decided to ask her to let go.
Unexpectedly, she… didn't want to.
That scared me even more.
I tried to convince her, but… she was stubborn.
What should I do? Be rough?
Saki was on all fours on the bed, holding the girl with both hands.
Her grip seemed to tighten more.
I didn't want her to keep going like this.
I approached from behind and thought about licking Saki.
Maybe she was jealous.
Or at least, I wanted to believe it was just jealousy.
---
While approaching, my mind kept bothering me.
Thinking. Always thinking.
Why? Why now?
Why not from the beginning?
Why wait until now?
As I approached Saki,
seeing the sweaty and apparently satisfied girl,
and Saki, becoming more and more different…
I wondered: why was I doing this?
Why was I here?
I remembered asking myself that question on the day I arrived.
Maybe I should rephrase it.
It wasn't "why," it was "for what."
What was it that I had to do?
Did I do it right?
I approached Saki and hugged her.
She still held the girl.
I pulled her against my chest and just stayed there.
She said, murmured something.
My mind didn't hear her.
Everything was noise.
I just pulled her closer to me.
I didn't understand why I was doing it.
It simply calmed me down.
So I continued like that.