Jaxon POV
"Why won't Rick just understand?" I thought. I don't know what is wrong with my father, but each time I try to make him understand something, he always thinks it's a fight. I don't always want to fight him. I just want us to coexist in peace. And then he had to marry my mate's mother. How am I going to control that? How would I have control over something like that? I cannot do anything. He doesn't know how it feels. I can't even say he doesn't know because he knows how everything feels. My mom was also once his mate, and he was madly in love with her. Nobody could compare their love to hers.
And now, just because my old mate turned out to be his lover's daughter makes things even more frustrating. I know she's a human being, and it makes no sense, but it has happened, and I cannot avoid it. Avoid. Avoid it.
I entered my room and slammed the door behind me as I sat on the bed, clenching my hands tightly while I stared at them. All my veins had already popped out clearly because I was in the presence of Aria, and I couldn't even get a hold of her. "Is this how it feels?" I muttered as my inner wolf growled loudly. It yelled as I tried to conceal it. I shot my eyes tightly, hoping that it would stop.
Maybe if I stop thinking about everything in general, it would stop. But yet my body kept getting hotter and boiling even more and more. I stood up in aggression and slammed my hand on the wall. "I can do this. We can do this. We have to hold it in, okay? I can't go near her. I promised. I promised I would stay away from her. Okay? If you want to be with her so badly, then get the hell out of my body and jump to her, okay? Don't you see she's not human? She doesn't even know how it feels. She doesn't even know what I'm passing through. So better keep silent there right now!"
I yelled at my inner wolf, hoping it would calm down, and it actually did. I felt so relieved as I rushed into the bathroom without even taking off my clothes. I turned on the shower to the highest and coolest setting as it poured down on my head, soothing me down as I calmed down quickly.
I soon felt at ease as I stepped out of the bathroom and took off my clothes, only to get a knock on the door. I looked down at myself, and I was only wearing my shirt, which was still soaked. Then I looked at the door; instantly, my sniffing sense picked up a scent—the one that drove me crazy all the time. Aria. She was here.
I heard the banging again, and with excitement, I opened the door to see her standing there, her hands folded and a deep frown on her face. At first, I guess she did not notice I was soaking wet and had only my shorts on as she pushed her way in. I closed the door gently and stood in front of it, clearly not ready to let her go because my wolf was now having the best time of its life being able to sniff Aria in full access.
She looked at me and shook her head before clearing her throat. "I don't want to be around you. I think this thing, whatever you two are fighting over, makes no sense. I am not worth being fought over. But I cannot do anything but just watch you two, and it's pissing me off. I don't want you to suffer. I don't want your wolf to kill me, to strangle me in the night. So for that, I will just stay around you in school. If that continues to persuade me to leave, I will not leave. Is that okay?"
She said as I smiled even wider.
"Stop smiling at me," she immediately attacked, not even giving me a chance to talk. She was about to say another word when I held onto her hand. "Calm down, okay? My dad is not going to take you to another school. You're going to be around me, and I... I just want to be close to you too," I said, unable to control myself as she let go.
"You are hot," she said and then realized that my shorts were soaked. "How are you soaked? Were you sweating? Were you exercising?" she questioned, clearly forgetting what I had just said to her. Or should I say she was pushing away the question because clearly it was awkward for her.
"I took a cold shower to cool myself down, but I think it seems it's not working. I can't control what's happening to me right now," I said to her as she laughed, throwing her hands in the air.
"You can't control what's happening to you right now. You are a wolf. Do something!"
"I don't want to transform in front of you. What I saw, I don't want to see it again. It horrified me to the very core," she said as I laughed.
"It's not my wolf transforming, madam. It's my inner wolf unable to control my mate bond," I said to her as she shrugged.
"Don't use that against me," she immediately attacked, pointing her hands at me. "I don't want you to use those words against me. I understand I am your mate, and I'm ready to accept that. Okay, though I don't even understand what you are, I don't understand what your father is, but I clearly know that you said I'm destined to be with you or destined to be around you to help you. But don't tell me your inner wolf wants me. What's your inner wolf?"
She questioned as I could already feel my wolf within trying to fight its way out, but I'm not going to do that—not yet. I would never make any advances toward her without her wanting it.
"I asked you a question, Jaxon," she said as I stood still, still trying to control myself. But before I could realize and hold it in, my inner wolf took action, and the next thing I knew, I had her wrapped around me as I hugged her tightly, and instantly everything seemed so suited even better than what the shower did to me.
"She is my cure after all."