SONG INSPIRATION: My September by Nastyona
Bum - Bum, Bum - Bum …
Faint sounds of a rhythmic beat filled my ears. Am I alive? Where is Nunnally? Did we win? Did I change the world?
The rhythmic sound was getting softer and softer. I went from having a numb sensation to feeling everything all at once. My eyes landed on the person I buried years ago. An old wrinkled face of a man I disdain with all of me. Seeing him smiling at me with so much superiority and sitting on that damn throne he doesn't belong to made me sick to my gut.
My zero uniform is gone, now I have the clothes of a prisoner. While being held by a strong grip. Suzaku knows what this unempathetic being has done to me. And yet, you are giving me away as if I was no one. A stranger to you…
It stings.
Being on my knees, forced to look down to the ground is draining the last bit of my dignity. Nonetheless, I am not giving up. I need to find Nunnally and bring a world where she can live happily.
Suzaku: "Your majesty, I have a request. Please, allow me to join the knights of the round. The 12 strongest knights of the Britannian empire."
Emperor: "As a reward for capturing Zero. Is that it?"
Giving me away…? This easily? Suzaku, am I truly no one to you?! Is this your punishment for my sin?
The Japanese soldier noticed my reaction.
Suzaku: "I told you Lelouch. I would change the world from the inside." He commented in a tone that only I could hear.
Your cold emerald eyes looking down at me tugged a string in my heart. Your gaze used to be as pure as falling snow, but not anymore. Your frowned expression makes me feel so… forgotten.
Suzaku: "That's right". He answered the emperor.
Emperor: "Very well, I like the answer you just gave me."
But as soon as those distant thoughts came to mind, they faded away. Replacing it with anger and disgust. I feel betrayed. I feel angry at you, Suzaku.
Selling me out to get a higher position in the same empire that has exterminated your kind and dehumanized them. You are a hypocrite.
This is where I realize how uncovered and fake our relationship has been all along. You and me, we should've never met.
I wish you never took my hand back then, back to when we were kids.
Your kind and welcoming smile hypnotized me. But now I see, we both have uncovered our true selves that day. We both stared at each other with hatred and regret.
Suzaku, your true colors are as nasty as mine are. Yet, you are here. Grabbing my hair with a firm grip while covering the curse and blessing I have gotten from a green-haired girl.
Emperor: "My unworthy son, who raised a battle of rebellion although he was a prince."
The person I thought I would one day be able to kill was now standing in front of me. His eyes glowing red because of his geass.
Emperor: "I will rewrite your memory about being Zero, about the death of your mother, about the very existence of Nunnally."
Those uncaring words made my whole body freeze.
Emperor: "You will remember nothing. You will be insignificant."
Lelouch: "No! Stop! You will steal the most precious thing from me again!" I desperately yelled. This act of vulnerability came from the deepest parts of my soul. I couldn't let this happen.
As I agonize and try to get out of this nightmare, the Emperor is already using his geass on me. Forcing my mind and body to forget what I once was and the bases of my whole identity.