Antany continuously stared at Elias and Clara with no emotion which makes Elias die in fear within himself.
And then he continuously stares at the drawing he just drawn with full of anger and jealous emotions.
Antany in his mind, "Why does Elias deserve such an attention from Clara??"
Because for him, Clara was not just a "crush", but rather, she was the last warm place in his dying world.
It was true that Antany was jealous of Elias. And it hurts him not just mentally but physically too.
JEALOUSY AS A PYSHICAL WOUND
His jealousy was too much that it felt like a migraine.
A migraine is a complex neurological disorder characterized by episodes of moderate-to-severe head pain, typically pulsating and often on one side of the head.
Antany tries to stay silent but there, Elias was enjoying with her.
Clara also saw Antany watching her and reported to Elias but Elias was in love mood and he didn't care a bit about Antany.
But Clara was not afraid of Antany as he stared like a way of protecting her from anyone.
Elias didn't felt like protection but like a killer instinct. Elias was sure that he can win an one on one fight as Antany was always silent and can be easily bullied by others for his strange behavior.
Elias showed his middle finger to Antany indicating an offensive warning. antany also got triggered.
But he didn't do anything as Antany was a guy who can handle pain and suffering since his childhood. He too like Elias always wanted a "Happy Family" and "Good Friends" to enjoy and live with.
But Elias was far more luckier than Antany that even if Antany tried to be friendly, his strange odour and his way of speaking was disliked by everyone.
Even teachers and mentors wont spend time with him and only scolded. He was surrounded by many but felt alone all his childhood.
But Antany was not an orphan like Elias. But what makes it a difference?? Nothing.
Antany time runs slow as he watches them doing cringy romantic things. Antany was zoned out as he was crying internally.
His heart was shattered into pieces.
Already he used to stare into guys who tried to approach Clara, But now the thing is totally different. Elias and Clara was almost in love with each-other.
And Antany couldn't bring himself up to accept the fact.
Though Antany could hear the flirting of both, his ears resisted to hear and the sounds feels like muffled which eventually caused him to psychologically disassociate within himself.
Antany was not normal and he began to think of some scary thoughts like , "What if Elias disappeared?? What happens if I kill Elias now??"
It was really scary for him to think like that.
If Elias and Antany were to fight, definitely Antany would win as Elias would not be serious enough to fight Antany but Antany on the other hand, wants Elias death no matter what.
So, there was a difference between both.
Antany thinks of every possibility to kill Elias brutally in his mind.
When he saw Elias once again laughing with Clara, Antany got angry and let free of his monstrous side that he instinctively tightens his grip until his pencil in his hand breaks.
He broke his pencil with what he scribbled Elias' brutal picture.
But before he could stand, the other classmates saw Antany breaking his pencil and also staring at Elias and Clara.
Then the usual mocking group came and sat beside Antany . The group usually had a member of five but today only 4 of them were present and those four started mocking him.
Antany showed no reaction as it was usual to him.
"You can't resist yourself, don't you?", a guy tried to trigger Antany.
Antany closed his fist with vengeance and the sounds of his bone cracking was audible to the nearby classmates.
"Why can't you fight against Elias over Clara? You also have a spot for clara in your heart , don't you??", asked another guy.
Antany did not say anything as Clara's name will also get damaged if he did any inappropriate thing.
The class mates saw the scribbled picture of Elias being cut into pieces and was shocked a little.
They showed the picture to Elias. Elias and Clara were shocked to see the image .
Elias was afraid a little bit but didn't show anything on his face.
Elias in his mind, "Out of 47 girls I had approached , only Clara accepted me and this Antany guy is getting triggered for no reason!...What's with this guy?...I'm feeling uncomfortable because of him".
Clara had no idea of what was happening and she was happy and comfortable around Elias.
"You gonna chop Elias into pieces like this??" , asked another guy pointing the brutal picture.
Antany by the time thought of killing Elias in every possible ways.
And then he heard a whisper saying, "hey, do you know? I saw Antany's mother with my neighbour!!"
"Antany, Is your mother a bi*ch??? How much for one night??? ", asked a guy to hurt Antany intentionally.
SLAM !!!
Antany slammed his hand in the table and the sound travelled through the whole class.
"ENOUGH!!!!!" , shouted Antany letting his monstrous side free.
Clara got afraid and dragged Elias outside the class. Elias went with Clara and he turned back a glimpse and saw Antany watching him in a fierce mode with a cold stare and his jaw tightened.
Clara and Elias escaped successfully because no one would have known what Antany might do next if Elias was sitting next to him.
After hearing about his mother, Antany got uncomfortable and also psychologically damaged.
He was restraining himself like a beast the whole time.
Some of them realised Antany's power just by his roaring. Almost everyone came to know that if someday Antany decides to fight back, we all would be dead.
Antany goes home alone with an usual pale face.
He sees Elias, Clara and her friend Gracia walking together laughing and smiling. Elias was enjoying there as she was the first one to accept him as a man and tried to understand him.
There too, Elias and Clara were holding hands together and going.
Antany was of-course jealous...But what he will do? Nothing. Because if he did anything to Elias, Clara will be the one who will get hurt.
Antany reached his home running as he didn't want to see them going happily.
He opens the door and the house feels cold and empty and airless like a mental cage.
He sees his father's photo with garlands over it.
"If you didn't die earlier, then I will also be happy like the rest of them", Antany thought in his mind seeing his deceased father's photo.
As he enters inside, a glass was thrown over Antany's head and broke into pieces. Thank God Antany got good reflexes that he escaped it.
"You didn't die you piece of sh*t !!?", shouted Antany's mother .
He entered her room and saw his mother lying down swirling around as she took drugs.
"You should have died instead of your father!!", Antany's mother cried angrily.
"Leave this room at once or I myself will kill you!!".
Antany had nothing to say, so he closed the door and literally cried by seeing his mother's condition.
He had no one to be with and also nowhere to stay.
His father died a long time ago. Before his death, everything was perfect in Antany's life.
Then after him, there was no source of income and for that, his mother thought of selling her body.
Everyone in his street came to know about it and eventually tried to take advantage of her.
This spoilt Antany's name and his future.
His mother usually used to weep a lot on her husband's death. In order to control that, she started taking drugs.
That reduced her pain for a small time but the pronlem is addiction. She became addicted to drugs. She used to sell her body and with the money she got, she used to buy drugs and filled her house.
Antany's future gradually got destroyed in front of his eyes. Her beautiful mom turned into a whore. His playful father is dead. His relatives maintained distance with him because of his mother's behaviour.
Everything was burning into ashes. He also got a bad name in school and a playful boy now became a silent beast.
He goes into his room with his tearful eyes , sat down and looked up on the wall.
The walls were full of pictures that had Elias and another guy from the mocking group on it.
He named it as "THE WALL OF VENGENCE".
He sees the wall and takes a photo of a 5th member of the mocking group.
In that pic, a beer bottle was inserted inside the 5th member's mouth. And Antany laughs at the pic.
Usually a group of 5 members used to mock Antany and have fun. Then a guy from that group approached Clara and tried to behave indecently with her.
Antany saw this and drew a picture that is now displayed on the wall.
He let his monstrous side out and then what happens?.....
He took a beer bottle from his house and called that guy into a narrow place , broke the bottle and inserted the bottle in his mouth tearing his jaws.
"IF THIS WORLD WON'T STOP HURTING ME, THEN I WILL HURT IT BACK" , shouted Antany and watched him bleed to death.
Now Antany pasted this Elias' pic on the wall cut it into pieces and then pasted the torn pieces on the wall.
He knew that Clara also likes Elias but still he refuses accept it and he thinks, "If Elias disappears, then Clara will finally see me !"
"I WONT BE SILENT FOREVER! MY DAY WILL COME!!!"
"I WILL CHOP YOUR BODY LIKE THIS ELIAS !!!.....HA HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!", laughed Antany like a monster.
And now Elias is in pure danger !