HEARTFILIA POV
Because I heard a dog barking, I looked out of our house. Instantly, I got up and ran out of the house. Upon seeing my dog, Chichay, I was so delighted; Jacob was holding her leash. I hurried to meet them.
"Chichay!" I called my dog cheerfully, picking her up. She licked my cheek, which made me giggle. I really missed her. Due to suddenly moving here in Jharied's house, I didn't see my dog for a long time because I couldn't bring her.
"Your mom sent Chichay because she hasn't been eating properly for days," Jacob said with concern. I looked at him.
"Thank you, Jacob. Come inside," I invited him. I carried Chichay and walked toward the house, with Jacob following behind me.
"Who said you could let just anyone inside this house?" Jharied asked with a cold reprimand, standing seriously by the doorway.
"He's not just anybody. He's my childhood friend, and my mom instructed him to bring Chichay here," I quickly retorted, an eyebrow arched at him.
"Hmm, Filia, I just dropped Chichay off. I have to leave now. I'll pick you up tomorrow," Jacob said, smiling.
"Okay, let's leave early so we can buy the supplies," I replied hastily. "Thank you so much again, Jacob, for bringing Chichay," I added. He just nodded and started to leave. I watched him as he walked out the gate.
I walked inside the house. I ignored Jharied, who was still standing by the door; he had been like that since I arrived yesterday, acting crazy and giving me awful looks.
"Are you and that guy going out? Where are you going? You are not leaving tomorrow, we have somewhere to go," he said non-stop. I stopped walking and looked at him.
"Why, is it wrong to go out with a friend? We have somewhere important to go," I answered him. His face grew even more unreadable. Did this guy have his monthly period again?
"You're going with me tomorrow, not Jacob," he said coldly.
"What is your problem? Don't forbid me from doing things, Jharied! Mind your own business!" I snapped back at him. But he seemed unbothered, and then he said something I never expected.
"I don't want you going with Jacob, because I'm jealous!" he said seriously. I was startled by his confession. I just stared at him, unable to speak.
"I don't understand these feelings I have for you. I don't want to see any other guy talking to you. Each time I see you talking to someone, my blood boils. I wanted to punch Jacob yesterday when I saw you two in the parking lot. I tried to stop myself, but no matter how much I try to stop it, I still feel angry! You should only be looking at me, Filia. I should be the only reason you laugh." He stared intently at me as he said those words. I was still in shock by everything he was saying. Was all of this true, or was he just playing a trick on me?
"Are you kidding me, Jharied? Or are you going crazy?" I asked, laughing. What kind of drama was this now? Didn't he enjoy his time with Samantha yesterday?
"Maybe I am crazy because of you," he replied straight away. He walked closer to me. Then, he held both of my hands. My heart suddenly sped up again-what the fuck!
"Filia, I think I fall in love with you. I know it sounds bad because you know I'm a womanizer, but these feelings for you are real. I don't know how it happened. I just woke up one day, and I felt something different for you. At first, I just ignored it, but the longer time passes, the harder I fall for you." I didn't know what to say. This was the first time I had ever experienced this-someone confessing their feelings for me. What should I say?
Should I confess that I feel the same way? But what if he's just playing a trick on me? He's a notorious womanizer. He has manipulated many women, and I saw with my own two eyes how protective he was of Samantha, unlike how he is with me.
"I don't have time to fool around with you, Jharied. If you can win over other women with those kinds of styles, but not me," I said seriously before pulling my hand away from his grasp. I saw the sudden sadness in his face.
"I am not playing games, Filia. I mean everything I say to you. And I will prove it to you." I had to look away because I could not stand staring at him any longer.
"I don't know; I'm confused. It's hard to believe everything that you said. You don't need to play with my feelings. I don't want to regret anything in the end," I answered him. He tightened his grip on my hand.
"I will prove to you that I already love you, if you don't believe me." I just shrugged before turning my back on him. I started walking up the stairs. What did he eat? Or maybe he bumped his head, and that's why he's saying crazy things.
As long as I can stop myself from completely falling for you, I won't tell him how I feel. I do not want to be defeated in front of him because the moment I fall into that trap of his, I lose.
"Calm down, my heart. I might not be able to handle this. Every time he holds me or I see him, your beating speeds up," I said trying to calm myself down when I entered my room. I let Chichay go. She immediately lay down on the carpet.
I lay down on my bed and sighed, holding my chest. It ached to know that our divorce was impending. Next year, both of us would be free. So if possible, I should forget and bury these feelings I have for him.
Should I leave now, so these feelings don't worsen? What would I tell him? Argh, this is such a mess! Why is it like this? Can't I just not fall for him? Can't it be some other guy, just not him?
Besides, he's not mine, anyway. So I shouldn't feel anything for him.
I lay down on my bed and shut my eyes tight.
"I don't want you going with Jacob because I'm jealous!" My eyes immediately shot open because I remembered what he said again.
You're annoying Jharied! Just leave me in peace! All you do is mess with my head!
You'll pay for this tomorrow if I don't get any sleep because of you!
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to be continued.