A tiktok video content says "when I like them, they don't like me and when they like me, I don't like them" I don't know how true this, but it happens to pretty much all the time.
They're so many people I liked badly and they treated me as such! That's why I said earlier on in my earlier chapter I've had my fair deal when it comes to love.
Frankly speaking, most times I don't feel like going on to have a relationship, like ever again! It is that exhausting and annoying.
But whom are mine to say won't? Don't get me wrong when I say "whom" of course I belong to someone and that's my father in heaven. I'm not married yet, so I'm his, right?
Then also, who am I not to love when all my life is built on love and a healthy dose of!
I so love love to the extent that I always get in trouble sometimes, but most times, I'm on top of the world.
Love is a beautiful feeling that can either build or break you down. I have been broken down too, a couple of times. But I don't let the pain define me or my love or the way I love. I look back on the journey before the breakup and hold onto it. That's how much I love.
Let me tell a bit about my love life.
I love a lot, which I mentioned earlier. But even my boyfriend most times, I ignore him. Hold on, hold on hear me out. I get tired easily most especially when it comes to people and my emotions. I have mood swings which I have spoken also about earlier and my boyfriend is no exception to that!
I love hearing his and talking to as much as I love pretend he doesn't exist just for me to keep my life in the path I feel it necessary to achieve my goal.
My elder sister always say "Favour, I love the way you are in a relationship and I also love the fact that you don't treat your relationship as a do or die affair!"
Look, I love you and that means I love you. You can either believe me or not, but that won't change the way I feel about you. But at the tail end, I learned something from you, that's me for you.
I always study the people I care most about. That's like a memorandum for me when you're no longer interested in the relationship.
This help me not to hate or despise you when you're gone. I will like to be happy for you and to wish you well in all you do, even though when I think of you, it stings in my heart sometimes, while sometimes it feels good to had have someone like you.
But then I'm in love, with whom, I do not know neither am I going to make myself know who he is!
Don't get me wrong, just like the "God's of Egypt" Goddess of Love, she also let go on her go, why shouldn't I?
As much as I love love, I can't let it define who I am or who I'm going to become and why, I love the fact that all I can love even when all odds are against me.
I take myself as a Goddess of Love crafted by God in his likeness and image, that amid all the odds when the world sway far away from his love, he sent his son to bring them back. If my father can love that much, why shouldn't I?
Sometimes I need to be reprimanded to remind me of my identity and to keep me on track. Other times I need to be alone and appreciate the little I have that I let waste just because.... just because I wanted more that was never existed.
I love the fact that his kind of love was portrayed by my parents and that they didn't hold back, but rather also portrayed back that kind of love to us as their children and helped us grow in that love.
So, will you blame me I love too much? But that doesn't mean I cannot un-love you!
Just because I love you doesn't mean that my world revolves around what you say or no. I have a different world and that cannot be traded for anything less.
If God won't settle for less, my parents won't settle for less, why do you think I should settle for less?
Think about it.