Chapter #106
I began to think as I sank into unconsciousness. What happened to my siblings and what was I going to do now? I couldn’t stab Zahid in the heart and who was to say that was not my last hope of escaping him? Nevertheless, I still couldn’t kill him… I was still unable to understand why I had behaved the way I did earlier on. No matter how few crumbs of emotion I had left for Zahid in the bottom of my heart, there was nothing rational about what I did. But if rationality was what it took to resolve everything, none of this would have happened in the first place. I would have ripped his heart out the moment I started to feel anything for him.
Regretting my past as I sank deeper into my unconscious mind was as meaningless as it was irreversible.
