At home Noxan thought of his interaction with Sylas again,he was filled with joy but his luck didn't hold long.His Fortune wasn't planned to be happy,he was cursed into darkness,his soul filled with a deep reaching fog,he knew his laugh wasn't meant for him,it was for the mystery.He was just the object use for Sylas Fortune.
This thought made him cry, not just cry but scream in the endless ocean hecreated with all his effortsless tears.The concept of him just being a side character in his own life wasn't just a feeling anymore,not it became reality.
*Now matter how hard I try,I will never be his rescuer when he drowns.I will never be someone who's important to him.I'm.just the cockroach he kills with the intensien of disgust...*
Noxan opened his burning eyes and saw that the stain of his tears made a patern,it felt unreal when he saw what they simbolized.
*This is incredible,no this is just an illusion."
The pattern looked like a cloud,the cloud which was made from fog,the same fog he got infested with.
*If this is really some symbol,this means that I'm really just a worthless piece of shit*
Noxans couldn't hold it,the "fact" that he has to fight agains the universe itself just lt be with him.
Even tough his tears haven't dried yet,his tears started to swallow again.The tears came in a rate so fast,his eyes were drying out,after so much tears have flown, blood started to rise.His body was already at his limit but his emotions wouldn't stop.He was the reason to burn,he made himself miserable,he will suffer.Everything because of a boy.
*I don't know how long I can survive this battlefield, fighting with myself,till I die by my own hands*
Noxans emotions started to fade,he still downed but just painfully not suffering.
He put on headphones and played songs he knew from his lowest,they followed him since the beginning of the breeze.Exept his emotions they were the only thing that stuck to him.Noxna believed they will forever be the only thing to follow him,he believed that not a single soul will love him,not to begin with a boy.
Noxannevereven gave it a try,a try to change his destiny,well he did but only meantelly his body never responds to his command,he just bed rotted till he was nothing except bones.