The song ends. I look at her like never before. Lunch time ends at the same time, and Nadia starts walking out of the room slowly. But I stud there, without moving a muscle. After a while, I finally snap back to reality and rush my way to my class.
While entering the class, I couldn't look directly at Nadia. It felt strange but I couldn't help it. I go to my chair with my eyes on the ground, I sit on my chair with my body as stiff as a brick. "Why do I feel like this?", I thought to myself.
Every single class was feeling like hell to me. I couldn't stop thinking about Nadia. Finally school ends and also my suffering, or so I thought. I hear Nadia screaming,"Robert, wait for me!" My mind goes blank. "W-We have to walk home together...", I whispered to myself.
Nadia slapped my back and asked,"Why the hell are you spacing out?" I answered,"Oh it's nothing, l-let's go home." Ever step home made me more and more self-conscious."Am I walking properly? Is my hair okay? Do I look weird?", My mind was flooded with such thoughts. Suddenly, Nadia kicks me. "Ahh!", I screamed. "Why,are you ignoring me?!", she said furious.
"A-Ab-What do you mean?", I replied. "Don't what do you mean me! It is clear as day that you are ignoring me!", she shouted at me. "Did I make a mistake? Did I do something wrong? Tell me!", she asked me. I listened to her with my head down. How could I tell her the reason of my actions. I slowly raise my head, and see Nadia with tears in her eyes.
"Wait. No, don't cry. It's not your fault.", I tried to comfort her. "Then why are you acting this way.",she says while whipping her tears. "Fine, I will stop ignoring you. I just have a habit of feeling down randomly.", I explained to her. I give her a napkin to wipe her tears. After that we both start walking together normally. It felt as if things had calmed down, but I couldn't see the usual Nadia in her eyes.
So I ask her,"Are you okay? If you want to schold me even more, then go for it. I deserve it-" She leans her face to my shoulder,"I was really worried. I thought I did something wrong, or someone had done something to you. I tried to ask you about it several times, but you would just walk away and avoid my gaze.", she said while holding back tears.
After hearing that I realized, whatever I did before was selfish. I could've handled these things better. Seeing Nadia cry on my shoulder reminded me of the time when my step-sister had gotten bullied by some guys.
"Robert, th-they pushed me down the stairs.", she said while sobbing.
Then, I started giving her head pats. It was exactly what I did when my step-sister had gotten hurt. She didn't let go of my had all the way to my room. She insisted to stay in my room for the night. I refused.
"Look, I get that you are feeling bad, but you can't sleep in my room.", I tried to explain it to her. She understood what I ment and started heading to her room. But then I started to feel bad,"Hey Nadia, you can't sleep here but I never said you couldn't have dinner.", I stopped her.
We both had dinner peacefully. But, while I was doing the dishes, I didn't realize that Nadia had fallen asleep. So, after I finished washing the dishes, I tried to carry her to her room. But I didn't want to disturb her. At the end, I gave up and decided I would let her sleep here.
I converted the sofa into a bed and tucked her in. After that I went to bed and slowly started drifting to sleep. But suddenly my sleep was interrupted. I was half asleep and barely aware of what was happening around me. I decide to turn to my left, but then I saw something bizarre.
I see Nadia sleeping beside me.