I've went home after watching The Lord of The Rings with Asuka
I tried to sneak back in since it was already too late, and I should be waiting for Niv to sleep with him
But it seemed that the world had a different idea
"A-Ah!"
"Sakura? What are you doing here?"
"Uh.. Hey Chloe"
"Hey Sakura"
"..."
"Why were you outside?"
"Sorry"
"Don't apologize. Answer my question"
"I..I was taking a walk"
"Yeah.. It does seem like you were taking a walk"
"Really?! I-I mean I know"
"I was being sarcastic"
"What does that mean"
"I meant the opposite of what I said"
"Oh"
"Now. Where were you?"
"I-I can't say"
"Why?"
"Niv will be mad"
"Sigh. It seems it helped you a lot. You talk a lot compared to the past few days"
"Sorry"
"It's okay as long as it helped you"
"W-Will you tell… Niv?"
"..No"
"Thanks"
"Hey. There are some redness on your mouth"
I touch my mouth, and it stings
"What's that"
"I-I don't know"
"Really?"
"Sorry. I lied. It's probably because of Niv and the old man"
"Wait. Niv too?"
"Yeah. It's way better with him, but I still hate it"
"Jeez. Please don't say that out loud"
"Sorry"
"Just go back to sleep"
I did as she said, and I had spent the night alone
***
It's the next day
I woke up and headed towards the kitchen to see what Chloe was cooking
I got close to the table. I stood on my toes and barely was able to see
"What are you cooking?"
"Some of that horse meat"
"For breakfast?"
"Come on, you can't be picky"
"Okay~"
I feel way more relaxed around her, so I decided to ask her something, "Chloe"
"Yes?"
"Do you think I look good?"
"Where did that come from?"
"Just answer"
"Sigh, yeah you look amazing"
"Then why did the old man hate my new hair?"
Chloe's eyes become wide open, and she stops cooking the meat
"Hey it's going to burn!"
"O-Oh yeah, sorry"
"Do you know why?"
"Why what?"
"The old man hates it"
"Uhh.. I don't know"
"Oh. Okay"
I left the kitchen and head to the dining table
I sat down alone on a wooden chair for a while, then Niv came
My heart started to beat faster for some reason
"Good morning Sakura"
"G-Good morning Niv"
He takes a step back. He's startled
Oh. I shouldn't have talked
"I didn't expect you respond"
A weird smile formed on my face
"I-I know. Chloe said the same thing"
He sits down in front of me, and says, "I tried to find you yesterday, but I couldn't find you"
"E-Eh? When?"
"A short while after I woke up"
"I-I think I was in the bathroom"
"Oh. Okay"
Chloe comes out of the kitchen. Food on her hands
She serves us the food, and she sits next to us
I gulped on the food as fast I could, and headed back to my room
Once I was in my room, I opened the window and jumped out. I closed the window from the outside, and headed to Asuka
On my way there I noticed a few zombies
Should I tell Niv? No, then he'll know I was outside
I decided to leave the zombies and headed directly toward Asuka
I knocked on the door, but no one opened
I knocked again, but there was no response
I opened the door, and I saw.. A naked girl
"Hey. Knock on the door. I don't want to be considered a sex offender!"
"O-Oh. Sorry"
I stepped back and closed the door
What was she doing naked? She did have a good body at least
A while later she opened the door, and I headed inside
We sat on the wooden ground, TV in front of us, and a video player. Our usual spot
"Hey. Instead of watching something, how about we read something?"
"What's read?"
"Looking at something and comprehending the meaning of it by interpreting the symbols"
"Uhh…. I don't know what you just said"
"Whatever. I will give you a summary"
"...What's a summary?"
"Basically giving you the short version of the story"
"Oh. Okay"
She gets a big chunk of papers and shows it to me
"You know what's this?"
"No"
"What's that"
"A comic book"
"What's that"
"A book that tells a story visually"
"What's a book"
"A big chunk of papers together"
"Oh. So all of these are books?"
"Yes"
"So, what's this"
"Hand-saw girl"
"What's that"
"A girl that has the Hand-saw devil in her heart, and she can pull out a hand-saw from her head"
"That seems cool"
"Hey. Let me ask you a question"
"What?"
"Why do you live?"
"I..I don't know"
"You don't have a goal or a reason to live?"
"...I don't think so"
"Huh? Everyone has one"
"I can't think of any. Sorry"
"Sigh. This is the reason why I live" She says as she points at Hand-saw girl
"But why?"
"Because it saved my life"
Huh? A book that saves someone's life?
"Is it that good?"
"Yes. The story is about a sixteen year old girl who gets manipulated by older men to get her heart and body"
Something stings my heart. I know that
"Asuka. That kind of reminds me of...Myself"
"Aha. Sorry, I can't relate"
"It's okay.. I think. But why did it save your life?"
"After my whole family turned into zombies I decided to commit suicide"
"What's suicide?"
"Killing yourself"
"W-What?! Why would you do that?"
"Because I didn't want to live in pain. Duh"
So, if I am in pain I should…Kill myself?
"Anyway. This comic book saved me from doing so"
"Why?"
"I don't know"
"You don't know why it saved your life?"
"Yes. It was fun to read, but that's about it"
"Oh"
"So after stopping myself from doing so, I decided to search for all the chapters"
"Did you find them"
"Nope. It stopped in the middle of the Death devil arc"
"So, what are you going to do"
"It turns out for some reason the author stopped publishing more chapters. I knew that by reading some old news papers"
"Oh no. What are you going to do now?"
"Make them continue the story"
"How? Aren't they dead by now?"
"Yes. That's why I will revive this world"
Asuka said that with a huge smile on her face. She either doesn't get how hard it is, or she actually can do it
"And I need you to do so"
"O-Of course I want to revive the world. What is the plan"
She says it so casually. She says it as easily as breathing is. It scared me
"In order to save the world, we have to kill it first"
Huh?
Kill it?
What is she talking about?
My body starts to tremble, I tried to speak, but the words were stuck in my throat
"We will kill everyone, and only four kids will be alive, then they will give birth to humanity again"
"Wait. Wait. Are you saying we're going to kill everyone?"
"Yes. Everyone"
"Why?!" My voice was louder than I expected, it even shocked me, but Asuka didn't even budge
"Then we will be able to recreate what Adam and Eve did"
"Who are these people?! Wait. No, I am not going to kill everyone"
"Come on. Don't be a pussy"
"I am not! You are doing something crazy!"
"Tsk"
"Also, what about you? If only four kids are going to live, what are you going to do? Kill yourself?"
"Yes"
My eyes widen, and my body feels hot.
She just said that it saved her life, and now she wants to die again?
I glared at her eyes for a moment. I always thought she was laid back and happy, but now.. I can see it. It's the eyes of someone with years worth of hunger
"Then… What's the point if you are dead?"
"I will be born again dummy"
"Huh?"
"If we recreate everything that happened exactly, that means I will be born again"
"If it all happened exactly, that means the author will stop writing it. There is no point in that"
"No. I will tell the kids to pass down the message to the author"
"That's…Crazy"
"Tyler Durden is also crazy"
"But that's a movie"
"What makes you think that we aren't in one? At the end of the day that's the whole plot of The Matrix"
"Stop"
"Come on. You too have reasons to kill some people don't you?"
"No! I don't"
"What about the old man and how he raped you"
A weird feeling rushes through my body. A liquid rises from my stomach, then to my mouth, and finally on the ground
Why does my body keep doing this without asking me? Why do I feel sick when she says those things?
I started to cough as I fell on all fours. I feel dizzy. My vision is blurry. My head hurts
"See? That alone is enough"
"B-But I don't want to kill everyone just for him"
"What about Niv? Didn't he rape you?"
"N-No! I said okay!"
I… I don't understand… What's wrong?
"Minors can't give consent"
Minors? Consent?
"What's even that?!"
"You are far from being an adult, meaning you aren't able to say yes and no"
"Who said that?!"
"Science. Also, it's incest, it's either way wrong"
"Shut up!"
My heart beats faster. My breath is quicker and shorter. My body trembles, but I am not scared.
Am I angry?
"Answer my question"
The door swings open
A wide man stands there, with a blindfold on his eyes
"Sakura"
I get up and tried to walk to him
But Asuka grabs my hand and stops me
"Say now. Did he rape you" She says with a smile from ear to ear
"Sakura. Come here"
I tried my hardest to pull hand out, but she's gripping it as hard as she can
"Aww~ It's the rapist. Why would you wanna go to him?"
"Leave me!" I say as tears started roll on my cheeks
All she did was smile
Niv comes closer and says, "Leave her before I kill you"
She smiles even more, and turns to me
"See? Everyone wants to kill"
Niv tries to punch her, but she holds his hand
Niv pulls his hands away, and Asuka leaves me
I fell to the ground
I stared at them
They are ready to fight
"Let's show your cute little sister how big of a liar her brother is"
She says as she lunges to him. Since Niv is blind, he couldn't react
She didn't want to hit him nor hurt him. She had a different goal
She grabs his blindfold, and I see it
I see Niv's eyes
He looks at me. Pain and sorrow in his eyes
I see a weird green color around his eyes. His skin is paler now that I look at it
I now realize why he hid it. It wasn't because he was blind. He was slowly turning into a zombie
"Oh! You're turning into a zombie. No way" Asuka says
No… it can't be. He's Niv. He's my brother. He can't be like them.
Niv lied to me
My whole entire life was a lie
He stayed on the ground. His eyes staring at the wooden ground in shame
I got up and left
I didn't look behind, but I still can imagine Asuka's smile, and Niv's face
I am in my room
Alone
I don't know if Niv is back. I don't care
He's going to die. The whole thing of being blessed was a lie
The room felt empty, but so did I. Every lie, every betrayal cut through my chest. Niv… the old man… Asuka… no one is as they seemed. And now, even I… I don't know who I can trust.
Niv…Raped me
Maybe everyone really is bad. Maybe the world is just like that. Maybe I am bad too for letting them do this to me. Maybe.. I am bad for letting them do it.