You left again a few days ago, you left me feeling cold again on hot days, you left me sitting waiting for you again, waiting for my phone to ring and it's you, nothing arrives, I don't feel anything.
You took your hugs again, your kisses so soft and warm, you took the sound of your voice, your laugh, you are no longer anywhere, I'm standing halfway waiting for you, but I know it's in vain to wait for you because you're not going to come back, we're not going to be one ever again, so I turn around and leave, I take another path, or rather, I start to form a new path.
I take one last look and there are all the memories, bad, good, exciting, we are there, we are laughing, we are sitting in our favorite cafeteria having our first date with the table that always moves, we go to be in the cinema me with a diver of yours, and making jokes in the cinema for having arrived early, I turn a little and we are moving, starting to assemble our home, I go to the other room and we are with our first kitten, I see a little more and we are arguing without you measuring your words, me crying in our bed, you come and hug me, all our moments They are there, from our first kiss to the last, on that path, I don't hold a grudge or hate against you, on the contrary, your departure took off a blindfold that I had on my eyes and I could recognize that it was time for you to leave, you have to make your life and mature, just like me, God put us on the same path just to be a life lesson for the other, I don't hate you, I could never do it after everything we lived.
I'm going to love you all my life but I'm not going to wait for you anymore, I need to reconnect with me, really see who I am, see and recognize the beautiful person I am. And heal, heal so that you stop hurting me.
I close our path, I end it, to start discovering my life, fulfill my goals without depending on you, your messages, your words, your hugs, I need myself more than your displays of love that last a week and then disappear.
Obviously I'm going to think of you, I'm going to miss you, however I know it's the best for both of us.
You are the most beautiful coincidence I've had, this is not a see you soon or see you later, it's the final goodbye.
Does it hurt?, obviously yes, I had felt happy again when we saw each other but I'm not going to hold you back anymore, not when you want to run to other arms.
I leave you free, I let you have that life that you said you didn't have with me, I let you go, I leave you alone.
I leave you to get used to your absence, to the lack of your touch, today I release you from my intensity to be able to find myself among all my chaos.
I love you. D.