I found out that you touched another skin, another skin that was not mine, you kissed other lips, you hugged someone else, without thinking about how I could feel. When I knew it, it was hard for me to accept it, I was crying for weeks locked in the bathroom or waiting to be alone because it already bothered you that I cried, you decided to touch another skin and get away from me everything because of a rumor, a lie, a perfectly armed scene, it hurt me that you touched another skin and it hurt me that you create lies about me to people who always wanted your evil.
I spent days and weeks trying not to imagine that you were with someone else, I told myself that it was a lie, that you would never do something like that to me, I tried to convince myself for a long time, I forgive you but something in me did not let me be calm, I was sleepless nights, I kept looking at you without being able to understand how you believed lies about me after everything I had shown you, all my fears, after you saw me become small in your arms, how my eyes shone when I saw you, how happy it made me to have you close, you clung so much to the Lie that you stopped seeing me, you stopped seeing me and started ignoring me for weeks, and I asked you to please see me and not to take me out of your life because you would kill me.
As I would like you to one day understand and see everything that I love you, I had my mistakes, my impulses, however I never left, I never really wanted to leave because I have the strength to keep fighting, after all do you have strength?, yes, I have them but I had to let you go for the good of both. We didn't understand each other because neither closed his mouth and listened to the other with an open mind, it was more difficult to see who was right and not to empathize with the other's feelings.
After knowing that someone else was in our place, everything in me collapsed, but that makes me understand that at that moment I would have had to let you go, that for once in my life I had to put aside the desire to keep trying and step aside so that you can continue with your life, I should not have been so stupid to try everything so that you stay when you were no longer happy when you stayed.
That today I take it as a lesson no matter how much love and security it gives, if the person next to me doesn't see me, doesn't see the kind of person I am, I have to leave, because I deserve someone who, no matter how much shit they say, won't pay attention, I deserve someone who believes in me, and in what I give him, but I think the other person can't see it because his fears consume him to the point of blinding him.
I understood that you knowing how much I love you, you decided to touch another skin and little by little abruptly asked me to leave, when I was just not finishing giving you all my being and everything of me, however no matter how much I have given you everything, despite my mistakes it was not my fault, it was not my fault because I tried to understand you in your bad days, I loved you when you no longer loved me, I fought when you had already lost the battle of moving forward together, it was not my fault that you decided to touch another Person.
The world accepts your mask from a strong and confident person, but that when you got home with me you were a child who needed just a hug, love and containment, as you never received it from anyone, you didn't know how to act and in the face of fear you hurt me, and pushed me away.
What I have to tell you is, I forgive you, I accept your mistakes, I accept my mistakes and this leaves me as a teaching that when they ask me to leave not to continue trying to understand someone or continue loving someone who can change me as one if they were worthless.
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As much as I need and love you
I accept that you have already decided to leave, and that
So you're fine, you're fine without me
Because you can be free. You can
Have that freedom that with me
You didn't have, or you just didn't
I liked the fact that someone
I want to make you see what you're worth
And why you can be loved.